The one he loves to hate

9. Tanga-tangahan lang

"Kasi nagseselos ako!"

Keith's eyes widened when the words Lex spoke sank in to her. He was JEALOUS. She was amazed by this information. Why would he be jealous? Hindi niya maintindihan. He was acting like this because he was jealous. Why would he say that? Why would he act like that? Hindi talaga niya maintindihan. Lex was so narrow minded. She shook her head and looked away for a while, after that, she looked at Lex again. 

"Why would you be?" iyon ang kaisa-isang tanong na lumabas sa kanyang bibig. Lex looked frustrated. He shook his head and walked towards her. Pagkatapos noon ay hinawakan siya nito sa kamay, hinatak at pinilit na ipasok sa sasakyan. Damang-dama niya ang malakas na pagtibok ng puso niya. Paulit-ulit sa kanyang isipan ang mga salitang binitiwan ng lalaking iyon. Sumakay na rin ito sa kotse at saka pinasibad iyon. No one dared to talked, even she got so scared of Lex. She glared at him and she saw how red his face was. Halos isang linya na lang ang labi nito at mabilis ang pagtaas ng dibdib nito. He was angry. He looked like he was ready to kill somebody. 

Nakarating sila sa bahay. Tahimik pa rin ito habang naglalakad sila papasok sa loob. She was really scared. Kahit kailan ay hindi niya pa nakikita si Lex na nagalit ng ganito. What should she do? What should she say? Does she have to say anything or should she just let it slip away. 

But if she let it slip, siya naman ang hindi matatahimik. Napalunok siya. Lex was about to get upstairs when she turned to him. 

"You were jealous?" hindi nakatiis na tanong niya. Lex brushed his hands againts his face. Humarap ito sa kanya at saka inis na inis na sumigaw.

"You heard what I said, I'm not going to say it again." tiim ang bagang na wika nito. Nanlaki ang mga mata niya. She bit her lower lip. At ito pa ang galit ngayon? Kiber? Akala ba nito ay magpapatalo siya? In his dreams!

"Ah ganoon?!" inis na wika niya. "Anong problema mo?!"

"You were flirting with James!"

"Iyon ang problema mo!?! Ang petty mo naman!"

"Hindi ako petty! Hindi ko rin alam kung bakit ko nararamdaman ito. Do you think I like how I feel about you? I am freaking jealous Katarzyna! But I don't appreciate being jealous because you are my number one enemy! Kaaway ka, hindi ako dapat nagkakaganito!" 

Halos mamugto na ang mga mata ni Lex sa sobrang singkit nito. She didn't know what occured to her but she felt a pang of pain in her chest. He was jealous of James and yet he doesn't want to be jealouse because he hates her. Kung sabagay, sino nga ba namang matinong tao ang magseselos sa kaaway nito? He was right. He had the right to say those things because he shouldn't be feeling those feelings. 

"I hate the fact that I got jealous of him! So if you ask me, I really don't wanna talk about it!" 

Matapos sabihin iyon ay muling lumabas si Lex nang bahay. She heard his car leave. Huminga siya ng malalim. Nag-away na naman sila ni Lex. She thought that their ceasefire will last until the baby was born but she guessed it won't be. Napaupo siya sa sofa. Lex was jealous. Hind niya alam kung ikatutuwa niya ba ang bagay na iyon, ikaiinis o ikagagalit. Unang-una ay wala naman itong dapat ipagselos dahil wala silang relasyon ni James. Pangalawa ay, bakit naman ito magseselos? Anong karapatan nito? Magkaaanak lang sila pero hindi sila mag-asawa. Sa madaling salita ay wala itong karapatang magselos dahil wala silang relasyon. Kaya hindi niya makita ang logic ng sinasabi nito.

Napahawak siya sa umbok ng kanyang tiyan. Naririnig na kaya siya ng kanyang anak? Kung oo, malamang ay narinig na rin nito ang pag-aaway nila. She sighed. 

"Baby, please, if ever you could hear mom and dad, please ignore us. The most imporant thing is that I love you and your dad loves you too...."

Muli siyang napabuntong hininga. Kung meron kasing isang bagay kung saan siya sigurado ay ang katotohanan na mahal ni Lex ang magiging anak nila. At para sa kanya ay sapat na iyon.