Touch

chapter 18

Au: warning this chapter contains self harm if this concerns you, I would skip this chapter. Remember that you're not alone. There is always sun after rain.  

Cedric backed away from Harry and sat on the bed . Putting his head in his hands  Cedric swallowed his tears and ran his fingers through his sweaty hair.

"Is this how you feel?"

"I had to do something." Harry mumbled and played with his hair, not meeting Cedric's angry glare. Cedric sat up and forced Harry to look at him. Harry always adored his brown eyes. Now, they looked like a monster had overtaken him. "or what?" Cedric demanded.

"He threatened to tell the whole school If I didn't fuck him." 

"That's not good." Cedric sighed .

Harry slid down the wall and played with his shoelaces "no, it's not." Cedric joined him, hands almost touching they linked pinkies and sat there. " then what do we do now?"

Harry looked at Cedric and met his gaze, letting go of his pinkie "I don't know , I just need you to hold me please." Cedric blushed how he desperately wanted to hold Harry in his arms and let him cry away his pain, but how can he trust him now. 

"How can I hold hold you when you were in the arms of another?"

"I had no choice."

"You had no choice?" Cedric scoffed." You could've just ignored him!"

"I-"

"Or was he too hard to resist?"

"No, Cedric, I only love you."

"Bullshit,  I bet you loved it when he was inside you, fucking your brains out."

"Never!"

"Lies!"

Harry's eyes started to water " I only have eyes for you."

Cedric shook his head " no you don't. "

"What are you saying?"

" What I'm saying is that we should break up this." He pointed between them "isn't working out."

"Please don't do this." Harry begged.

"I've made up my mind. "

Harry stood up and plunged his hands into his pockets. " Fine, then, be that way." He turned his back on Cedric and left him there to watch him go.

Cedric looked up for a quick second, then opened his mouth to speak. " Harry, I-"

But Harry was already gone.

"Love you." He finished off his sentence.

1 week later...

Harry wondered in the library and searched for his favourite book, pausing for a short second he turned his head around and saw half of the Hufflepuff quidditch team studying their butts off. And, of course, his ex had to be there.

Cedric's  gaze met Harry's, and they didn't look away. for one magical
moment, a spark ignited in Harry's core. His heart raced in his chest, but he chose to ignore it he quickly turned away when a girl sat next to him.

Harry reached for the book, and suddenly, the books on that section toppled onto him. The entire Hufflepuff team laughed.

Including Cedric.

He could hear their voices from underneath the pile of books he stayed there and listened.

"What a loser." The girl sitting next to Cedric snickered.

"It's no why he has no friends. "

"Freak."

And finally.

"I'd rather kill myself than hang out with him."

That was the final straw.

Harry had enough of the lies , struggling to get free from the books he ran to his room, crying all the way. Once he was in the Gryffindor boys room, Harry cried uncontrollably he blamed himself for that incident with draco. God knows that he could be spreading what happened between the all over the school by now.

Harry laid  down on his side and sobbed , gliding his hand underneath his mattress he found what he was searching for.  He stared at his reflection from the mirror shard , eyes red from crying,  hair messy from twisting and pulling, lips cracked from dehydration.

God he was a fucking mess.

He stripped off his clothes and carefully sliced the shard of glass across his abdomen . "Fuck you draco for tearing us apart, you bastard. " he hissed as he sliced his inner thigh. " I hate you, I wish you were never born."

The more Harry cut himself,  the more he wished that Cedric would burst into the room and stop him from harming himself.

"One more cut, and that's it." Harry said underneath his breath. As he was about to make the final cut across his chest, a knock at the door made him stop. " Harry, are you in there?" Hermione's voice said from the other side.

"Shit, shit, shit." Harry quickly dressed and tried to clean the blood away.  How was he going to explain this to Hermione?

"Come in!" Harry said in a normal voice as he put his socks on , Ron was also with Hermione with a confused expression on his face.