A sigh of God

Chapter 17 - Hard and soft

Weird hollow voices echo through the bright corridor.

The sound of wheels scraping against polished floors is loud against your ears, louder than the voices calling your name.

All you can feel is major pain and contractions throbbing through your body. Wet eyes try to blink away the tears, try to recognize the people around you.

Everything is happening too fucking fast.

"Just breathe" A voice called, "And push, okay? You can do it"

You can do it.

"Come on"

The sweat is thick on your forehead, fingers try to grasp anything they can find. A dreadful scream filled the bright room.

Your lower body is too numb, too painful. You are not in control.

It's too much.

"Push!"

I can't You want to scream but no voice is coming out.

"Push!"

Is this a nightmare? What is happening?

Fat tears roll down your rosy cheeks as you sob painfully. Short gasps leave your trembling lips.

"You have to push! You have to do it now!"

Fuck!!!! Why can't you fucking do it??!!

And amid the horror, you suddenly feel a warm touch on your cheek, cleaning away your wet trails. You focus your gaze and see bright blue looking down at you.

A warm smile on his lips as he holds your hand and brings himself closer to you. You envy his calmness.

"Angel," He whispers, "You got this. You can do it"

You bite your lower lip harshly.

"I can't...d-do it..." You cry out, whining, "I can't... I can't..."

He puts a hand on your forehead, pushing sweaty locks away from your face before forcing you to look into his eyes.

"I know honey. I know. I'm here. Look at me, breathe with me."

You try to focus on your breathing but it feels impossible. You squeeze your eyes again and let out a terrifying cry.

"Inheal, exheal. Come on, baby. You can do it. I'm here"

Something in his calm voice takes you back to your first night, your first sex. You suddenly remembered the fear numbing your body, the painful stretch, and the love in his eyes.

His beautiful, mesmerizing eyes.

You open your eyes and stare into his. He gives you his gorgeous half-smile.

"That's my girl."

He holds you close, dear as you give it all, screaming and crying and doing anything you can to gain control over your aching limbs.

And suddenly, a cry of a newborn silences all pain.

With parted lips and widened eyes, you stare at the small figure between your arms. Satoru's eyes tear up immediately, and he bites his lower lip as hard as he can to stop himself from breaking down in tears.

"A boy"

And suddenly, everything falls into place, and the chaos feels far behind.

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Words can't describe the feeling you have when you see the way Satoru looks at his newborn. He holds him with care, his features hold the softest and dearest look.