Sweet Little Girl

Thirty Seven

"Mommy!" I yell, rubbing the sleep out of my eyes.

"I'm in here sweetheart." I go to mommy, hugging her around the waist. Mommy picks, me up giving me a few kisses. "Why are we up so early today." Mommy asks scratching my back. I lean into her but I can't stand how uncomfortable mommy's chest feels. I whine in frustration trying to push myself away from her chest. Mommy tries to put me down but I hold onto her. I stare at her boobies trying to figure out why they feel so hard.

Mommy notices how I'm looking at chest, reaching her hand in her shirt pulling out an oval shaped bottle with milk inside. "It's breast pumps baby." She says. It's not like her telling me about the breast pumps helped clear my confusion, but I nod anyway.

"Why mommy put it there?" I ask trying to get the another one out. Mommy holds my arm before I can even reach my hand in her shirt.

"Careful mama, we don't want to waste any." Mommy says, pulling out the other one. "Mommy put it there so she doesn't get milk all over her shirt." I frown patting her boobies to see if she has any more of those things still in there.

"All gone?" I ask trying to pull her shirt up.

"I only have two breasts baby." Mommy says chuckling.

"I have milky?" I ask.

"You can baby, but only from your babba." She says. I kick in frustration and throwing myself backwards. "Nollani!" Mommy says using her mommy voice.

"Want milky now!" I yell.

"You better use your inside voice little one, you don't want to get in trouble early in the morning." Mommy says looking me dead in the eyes. I nervously stick my fingers in my mouth suckling eagerly. "You can have milky from mommy, when mommy gets back. I'm not denying you your milk." I nod laying my head on her shoulder. That's until her words register in my brain.

"Where mommy going?" I ask and Mommy sits me on the vanity

"Can you show mommy your listening ears first?" I reaching for my ears to show mommy.

"Good girl!" Mommy praises and I wiggle happily. "Mommy's going to work." She says tracing circles on my palm. "You're going to be a good girl for mommy and stay with Nana while mommy's at work today." I stare at her blankly.

"No wanna" I yell pulling my hand away from her, folding my arms over my chest.

"I know baby." Mommy holds me by my sides.

"I go with mommy." I tell her. Mommy shakes her head and that makes me very upset with her. I kick my feet, wailing in frustration.

"Can you look at mommy please? Remember we still have our listening ears on. Can you show them to mommy?" I calm down a bit, showing mommy my listening ears.

"Such a good girl." mommy says. "You're going to be mommy's brave girl. You're so brave aren't you?" I nod hiding my face in her boobies. "That's a girl. I won't be long sweetheart." Whispers softly resting her chin gently on my head.

"But mommy." I whine.

"I know pumpkin, I know." Mommy says gently.

"Mommy be back?" I ask.

"I promise my baby, you won't even realise I was gone." I don't think that's true but mommy never lies to me, so I trust her.

"Otay." I say with a lump in my throat. "Mommy?"

"Yes baby?"

"Babba p'ease."

"Can mommy get you some food first?" I shake my head not in the mood for food. Mommy nods taking me downstairs with her. She works pretty quickly because I have my babba in no time. Nana comes down some time after, holding her hands out for me. I hold onto mommy a bit tighter. "Brave, remember?" I nod letting Nana take me away from mommy. I sniffle trying to hold in my tears. "I'll be back soon baby. I love you." Mommy tells me giving me a peck on the lips.

I watch over Nana's shoulder as Mommy leaves and I can't hold my tears in anymore. I cry quietly hiding in Nana's neck. She rubs my back soothingly whispering reassuringly. My mood was dull, I let Nana do whatever only nodding and shaking my head at her questions. "Do you need help with your bath or can you do it all by yourself sweetheart?"

"Help." I say. She nods undressing me and places me in the warm bath water. I play with my toys and don't protest when it's time to get out. She dresses me and lets me play in my playroom only coming in only to check on me or to give me food or a snack.

Nana comes in sometime in the day and suggests we sit outside on a blanket under a tress since it's pretty sunny. I nod letting her carry me. She sets up the blanket and places a few cushions for us to sit on. I sit cuddled up against her feeling drowsy from the sun. She tries to talk to me but I only give her one word answers. I didn't want to say much because I felt like I would burst out in tears. I wasn't upset because of Nana, she's been really sweet to me and made me feel very safe but I still wanted my mommy.

I suckle on the binky Nana clipped on my shirt and eventually fall asleep. I wake up when I feel Nana pick me up sitting me on her lap. I open my eyes slightly and it's still pretty sunny so I close them again. Nana smells a lot like mommy right now so I burry my face against her chest. She even sounds like my mommy. I look up opening one eye, just to make sure it's still Nana and I'm not going crazy.

"Hi!" Mommy says kissing me on my binky. I smile bouncing on her lap excitedly. Mommy chuckles rubbing my cheek. "Were you a good girl for Nana?" She asks pulling my binky out.

"Yeah! Miss you." I say shyly.

"I know sweet-thing. Mommy missed you too." She says giving my a kiss attack. I giggle pushing her away but all I get is kisses all over my hands.

"Mommy stop." I say trying to look stern.

"Is mommy being so silly?" She asks pouting.

"So silly!" I tell her giggling.

"Look at how red your poor cheeks are, your Nana made you sit here in this heat." Mommy says.

"Oh hush! We're in the shade, she was completely fine!" Nana flicks Mommy's arm. "She looks adorable with flushed cheeks anyway." Nana adds.

"I know. With her matching little bloomers with ruffles on her little bottom." Mommy says turning me over to look at the bloomers Nana put over my diapey. Mommy pats my bottom, making me whine, embarrassed.

"No mommy!" I pout at her. She knows how much I dislike her patting my bum. Well, not all the time but most of the time.

"I'm sorry pumpkin, mommy just couldn't resist." She says booping my nose. I get up waddling towards the swings but I turn back to mommy remembering what she said in the morning.

"Milky now?" I shout sitting on her lap. Mommy chuckles unbuttoning her shirt.

"As much as you want pumpkin." She says helping me to latch on.