Julls POV
Waking up on Saturday morning, the first thing my eyes landed on was Antonio on my bed asleep on top of the bed cover. The memories of how he took care of me all coming back to me, how he was such a perfect gentleman that he dressed me up, tucked me in bed and braided my hair which is how he ended up sleeping here I assume as I fell asleep long before he was done braiding my hair. How safe is my hair good Jesus?
I took my time admiring the view with a smile, how did we get here?. He looks so peaceful in his slumber, his hair is messy but he is still good looking.
Antonio must have also been very tired to fall asleep like this but he still managed to disregard his own exhaustion and pemper me it warms my heart. He keeps breaking down my walls little by little. Everyday the heart grows fonder and softer not to mention my traitorous body. But I can't fault my body, my husband is really good looking.
I know I have touched his face enough to remember how he feels like but I couldn't stop myself from reaching out, touching him and moving my hand until I was fixing his hair, just sorting it a little bit.
I removed my hand from his hair and really appreciated the beauty in front of me. Antonio's eyes suddenly opened catching me off guard. I was embarrassed but Antonio's easy going manner helped.
"good morning Julls" he said with a warm smile that calmed me and had me relax 'it's just Antonio'
"good morning" I responded with a shy smile like some school girl
"do I need to get a restraining order?, because the way you have been ogling me can't be normal. Julls I don't feel safe" he said fake worrying. Can you believe him?
"come down Antonio, what could I possibly do to you?, rape you?" I fire back at him. Why did I just say that?
"I was only thinking you wanna prison me in your bed and stare at me all day but it's worse then I thought, you want to jump my bones Julls" he says fake shock, fake fear and drama
I picked up my pillow and threw it at him and he responded by quickly climbing on top of me and pinning my hands above my heard with his hands. My heart rate sped up
"I don't hear you denying it" he said smiling brightly, my brain shutdown and my mouth dried
I still can not believe Antonio is this handsome up close, especially when he smiles. The way his lips moved, they looked very soft. I got lost in a haze.
By the time my eyes traveled to meet his own, they were starring right back at me and I felt transparent and exposed and Antonio kissed me. He kissed me passionately, now I was truly dazed. My body responding so naturally to him.
As soon as my lips were available, my brain started functioning as well.
"Antonio what are we doing now?" I asked him so quietly while he was still laying on top of me pinning my hands above my head.
He cleared his throat and moved off me to lay next to me facing me. He took 1 of my hands in his, just when I was giving up on receiving an answer.
It still took him a minute to get the words right. At this point we were just looking into each other's eyes.
"Julls" he breathe, "I can't erase the past but if I could I would." he finished. I knew exactly what past he was talking about and remembering made me want to retrieve my hand from his but he held it firm.
"I behaved so badly, I regret it" he said. Tears sprung to my eyes from the hurt he caused me but I remained quite.
"Julls, you and I are married even though it was not for the right reasons and I now understand it was forced on you but we are married and you are still here after all this" he continued. The tears immediately fell from my eyes, he brought his other hand to squeeze and massage my hand to comfort me, now I was crying.
"I am sorry Julls" he said very sadly as well, "Julls all I have is this sorry and I know it doesn't do anything for you" he continued
"I know I should be asking you how I could make up for all the hurt I have caused you but I'm scared" he said very emotionally that my tears halted to find out what scares Antonio
"I am scared that you might say to leave me and this marriage" he said his voice breaking,
"I can't do it Julls, I am scared because I wouldn't be able to leave without you, because I am in love with you Julls" he said and I didn't know what to say, "at first it was just an arrangement to me and protecting my public image but now-" he paused seemingly not having the words
"Julls, I love you and I don't know when this happened but I love you" he said placing my hand in his chest aligning his heart. The tears returned.
"being without you terrifies me, so I want to ask you to give me a chance but I'm scared to find out what you will say and thus I am pleading that we move past all the hurt and you find it in your heart someday to forgive me" he said sincerely. I was just about to say I really don't know, but I also know that I also have feelings for him but he wouldn't let me say a word
"Julls please," he begged
"just give me time. Please give me a chance, that's all I'm asking for" he said rubbing my hand on his chest still. All I could do was nod
Antonio could not help it, he rushed to hug me. He gave me a bone crushing hug, engulfing me within his strong arms and thanking me profusely.
I could feel that he was really worried. After a while he calmed down and let go of me and he smiled at me, if it's not the best thing just have Antonio smile at me the way he was then I don't know what is.
"I will start by taking you on a date. Be ready at 7, okay?" he said smiling and I nodded again
Antonio got off bed and moved to leave my room but halted at the door, turned around and returned to me. He climbed into the bed and using both hands, 1 hand coming around my waist pulling me up a bit while the other hand lifted my chin higher and he kissed me.
I kissed him back with my hands, 1 attached to the arm on my waist and the other on his waist pulling him closer to me. Honestly I love Antonio's kisses.
The kiss ended too soon, I was disappointed. He looked into my eyes, his green orbs carrying so much adoration for me and then kissed my nose and let go of me.
"see you at breakfast" he said and finally left my room.
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Making Deals: Entangled Love
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