Love Lost, Lessons Learned

Doubts

Doubts

"Hi Ate hehe." Astrid said, our youngest. I have 2 siblings so we're 3. Asher, the oldest, me, and Astrid. We are close but we rarely see one another because Asher and I both started working. I just started this year, Kuya started two years ago, and Astrid is in college.

"Anong problema? Okay ka lang ba? May ginawa ka bang kakulitan nanaman?" I asked continuously.

"hahaha, Ate naman ih. Good girl na ako simula nung January noh?" She answered which made us both laugh. "Edi bakit gusto mo 'kong kausapin?"

"Ate, ano kasi... 'Wag ka pong magagalit ha? Sinama po kita sa The Chatterbox. I was bored kasi tapos nakita ko 'yon. Ayokong ilagay sarili ko since mahiyain ako sa ganon tsaka bawal pa age ko non kaya naisip kong ilagay ka. It was just for fun kasi I know naman na ayaw mo sa mga ganon kaso ate ano eh-" I interrupted what she was saying.

"Kaya pala tumawag sa'kin kanina na nakuha raw ako sa 60 participants. Astrid Gabriel, alam mo 'tong ginawa mo diba? You're matured enough to know na ayaw ko sa mga ganyan. Mas better pa sana kung si kuya na lang sinama mo. Hindi pa ata nakakamove on 'yon. Mas bagay siya jan." I replied to her.

Sai and Michelle spoke to me suddenly and told me that if I didn't eat, they would eat all the food. I signaled them to wait and be quiet since I was speaking with my sister.

"Ate, nilagay din kita ron para makamove forward ka na, gusto kong mawala na yung sakit na nararamdaman mo sa kaniya. Gusto kong malabas mo lahat ng mga gusto mong sabihin about him. Yung mga hindi mo kayang sabihin sa kaniya mismo. Kahit eto lang, ate. I promise na wala na akong gagawing kakulitan pag sumali ka don. Makakatulong sa'yo yung interview na 'yon dahil paguusapan niyo yung past. Salihan mo na, please?? Para sa'yo rin naman 'yon." She reasoned.

I frowned. "So.. About sa ex ang paguusapan?" 

"Opo, Ate. I'm sorry po na sinama kita pero sana salihan mo na po. It would benefit you a lot." She still insisted, so I just said yes for both of our peace of mind. I'm already busy enough to have more problems.

"Talaga, Ate?? Thank you!!! Hindi na need maghanap ng papalit sayo hahahaha." She said happily.

"Hepp! In one condition. Hindi na si Ate Kiara ang maglilinis ng condo, gusto ko ikaw for a week at ikaw din magaalaga kay Zana kaya mag stay ka dito sa condo after ng interview. Para rin malaman ko mga pinaggagawa mo lately." 

"Okay lang, Ate!! At least sasama ka pa rin sa The Chatterbox hehe. I love you!!"

"Sige na, magpahinga ka na, anong oras na. Bye na, good night sainyo ni mom, pakisabi na lang sa kaniya at matutulog na ako." I said goodbye and Astrid was happy to say goodbye.

I was catching my breath because I wasn't planning on participating. I simply want to focus on my work. I do not wish to recollect my past. "'Te, kakain ka ba o mageemote na lang jan?" Michaela said to my surprise, they hadn't left the table yet.

"haha sorry ha? Nagulat kasi ako na sarili kong kapatid yung dahilan bakit nasama ako sa The Chatterbox na sinasabi niyo" Sai choked up after hearing that.