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[ONE] - the tea

im not really sure what to say

i don't have a lot of books on this account because i have a lot of other accounts on wattpad, this is just one of them. not many people are gonna read this so i dont really give a fuck about what im saying.

also because i was high last night and randomly thought this shit up and made the book so i figured why not just write it out anyway.

my friends dont know about the fact that im writing on a really big account & this is like a really small one so they'd never find this out although one of them follows me.

i wanna write shit that they dont like but i dont want them to know its me writing which is why i have like forty fucking accounts.

anyway im writing one story specifically about me & my friends and i told them i would publish when i wrote chapter one and so i keep stalling and saying i never wrote the first chapter and i have nothing planned; like i just tell them it was dumb idea and im not into it but i so am.

like its one of the best things ive ever thought up.

so they want me to write it and im already like what, five chapters in? yeah, five chapters. (i love talking like im in some screwshit interview rn.)

so yeah, i have four accounts, one from 2021 when i first got on wattpad (yuh) and the other two were made in 2023, this being one of them. meanwhile, theres one i made in february of this year, (2024 for reference) and i have like 2 really huge books on there.

im talking a big fanfic idea that is actually original, because lets be screwshit fr here, the miles fairchild fandom is the same bullshit:

y/n's kates neice/daughter/sister/cousin and she goes with kate for some reason to stay with her while she teaches flora, then she meets miles they fall in love yada yada, same shit.

dgm wrong, i loveeeeddd that stuff, i ate ts up back in 2022 when i went thru my fairchild phase, but bro i kid y'all the fuck not, i got so tired of it. i had a massive finn phase from like 2021 to 2024 and its been like a good 3 yrs, nobody writes anything new.

i read like one miles series, and like 4 books that were actually some what original, and most of the books discontinued or ended like 4-10 chapters in.

some of them are fire asf though, love those ones.

so yeah i decided to write 2 miles fics, one of them is on one account. as of rn it has 5k reads, the other one i just made and published like what 2 weeks ago? it had 100 reads in 4 days and my other book with 5k reads only had 100 reads after a month of being published.

mind you this 5k reads book, and this new one i posted 2 weeks ago, they're a YEAR apart, like i made the 5k one & published it so far in march of '23 and the new one was (clearly) may '24.

so im kind of pressured into writing tons of shit, and it stresses me out, but at the same fucking time, my indecisive ass can't decide what characters to stick to, and i get hella fucking bored.

but at the end of the day it's like i  wanted this, so i really can't complain.

but bro like that BIG account is a secret, like the one with the new miles fic also has like 2 original stories, and i wanted to post the og story i wrote of my friends & i on there, but then they would know.

so then there's also the issue of "i wanna read it when you publish it, because im gonna laugh and comment" which again, i love that, but i want to publish my original stories on BIG accounts because then they'll get more reads.

basically, my 5k miles book is on an account with 40 followers.

but my other miles book is on an account with 200 followers (i think thats a lot rn)

so i wanna post my original stories on bigger platforms bcs they'll get more attention, whereas basically no one would read it on an account with like not even 50 followers.

imo if anyone pulls up to this bk saying 'i'll read it,' bitch ik you prob will now that ive spilled the tea, but it's not that im worried about.

i wanna write smut y'all im so fr. but if my IRL friends see ts, it's over for me 😨 .

which is exactly why i decided to make it on a diff account, and i met my fav authors on wattpad thru that account, which is why i'd lose my shit if my friends saw it too.

bcs ive been telling them that its a friend of a friend, and they love that account's books, they even thought it was me bcs of one specific scene in it, but i keep denying cs BRO like i don't want them to seeee ittttt.

tbh im pretty sure they follow me but i dont want them to, even if its just a small ass account because im just here to rant about shit i dont want anyone to see.

like i highly doubt i'll tell yall what my other are & whether i own both of them.

anyway thats it for tdy's ranting sesh hope u guys enjoyed my useless yapping about a problem that literally nobody can help me with.

love y'all forever (whoever tf u are reading my book, mutual or stranger, have a good rest of ur day babes.) 💋