ice eyes

rethinking

I sat down in my driver seat in my car and slammed the car door behind me. I clutched the steering wheel, rethinking me words and actions.

"Fuck!" I shout while hitting my hands off the steering wheel.

Mabye I shouldn't have said what I said, fuck mabye I shouldn't have said it full stop.
But did I get something off my chest that was bugging me all day long, yes.

But I shouldn't have just stormed out, I should have heard her out.

I cant go back in there now though. Can I?

Or can I go in?

But what if she tells me to fuck off. To be honest I'd rather her shout that to me than her ignore me.

Ah fuck it.

I step back out the car, my anxiety going through the roof.

I make my way through meadow Park corridors, till I reach the changing room door.

That is now open

Open? I slammed it shut.

I slowly walk up the door, I could hear people talking.

I could hear lia, and a crying leah. Fuck I made her cry.

"Leah it's going to be ok I promise. She just thought mabye we had a thing" I heard lia comforting leah

"B-but what i-if she doesn-nt like me anym-more" she sobs

Fuck me, I need to go in and hug her but then they'll know I was listening in.

"Leah, how could she not like you. Look at you leah, your beautiful and I'm sayingthat in a friendly way" lia jokes

"Thanks lia" leah laughs
But you could hear leah trying to muffle out her sobs

Fuck it I'm going in.

I knock on the door.

"Ya" they both answer

I walk through the door.

"Leah i-" I try to say but I was cut short

"No, Lucia not now. Not after you just walked out and slammed that door behind you and left to your car for ten minutes. You had your chance to come back in thr moment you slammed that door" leah says tears running down her cheeks

I nod understanding leah

"I understand...but leah I just wanted to say I'm sorry, I shouldn't have done that. I never should do it again" I sigh

"Just get out" leah says

I look at her, tears building up in my eyes. Not knowing if me and leah would be on good terms for a while.

I gulp before turning on my heels and walking out the building.