Longing or betrayal

~ My beloved woman next to me! ~

~♤~

When he reached her lips with his left a little and soft kiss on her lips. Then Güzide immediately pulled away herself.

G: Sezai, it isn't right. We can't do this.. -turned away and muttered it with confusing.

S: I'm sorry, I went far away... -he shamed and regretted what he did. - so, I... I go out for ice, it will be good for your swollen foot. -tried to avoid her look in his shamed state.

He went to the kitchen and took out of the ice from the fridge while blamed himself for these hastily steps. -Sezai, what did you do, man? -shaming his action went back to her. 

S: I'm sorry.. I don't know how could I do it! -asked her forgiveness with confused.

G: Sezai, I want you to know that pulled myself out of it... because I'm still married. Not, because I didn't want it... -admitted it to him.

S: I'm really ashamed, Güzide. It shouldn't have been allowed.. -lowered his eyes like a guilty man.

G: Yes.. hm.. so I want to ask you already, when will be the negotiation tomorrow?

S: It will be 10 am, but you don't have to come, I'll represent you, okay? -with relieved state due to change the topics and sat down next to her.

G: No Sezai, I will go with you! How can you think that I just represented myself by you?! Sezai, you don't know me? -said it with sharply and nervously.

S: I just said it because of yout foot, but of course I know you, I knew that you will attack me. -smiled at her violent and ambitious state and sat down next to her.

G: I'm fine, I can walk now too, tomorrow it will be even better. -looked at her foot which was still swollen.

S: Okay dear, I brought it from the fridge. -looked at the ice. -it will help you to eliminate the swelling.

G: Ah okay, give me. -she wanted to take it out of his hand.

S: Don't hurry, wait. -he, himself put it to her swollen foot and slightly pushed it where the sore spot was.

G: Offf...-pierced in pain and pulled away her leg a little.

S: Sorry, is it hurt?! -asked her frightened voice and pulled his hand away.

G: No, no it was just a little unpleasant and cold. -tried to dissemble the pain.

S: I will be more careful. -smiled at her dissembled face and continued to cool her foot.

Güzide looked at him, while he carefully nursed him. The soft and careful movements showed out his regret and how he wanted to improve his mistakes. Then Güzide thought to Tarik, who was selfish and cruel. How could she chose him instead of Sezai? How did she not realise his love in the university? Why was she so blind towards Tarik actions, the love and trust towards him blinded her? -these thoughts just tormented him more and more. Then thougt about Sezai's family and without any thinking she asked him about it.

G: Sezai, what about Selma and your daughter, where are they? -asked him with curiously which question touched Sezai unexpectedly and unconveniently.

S: Hmm.. my daughter isn't in Istanbul. She lives in America. -said it with lowered head and continued to cool her foot.

G: Ah, I understand and..Selma...Is she lives with her daughter? With Ipek? -asked shyly because saw Sezai's uncertain state.

For this question Sezai took the ice from his leg and went away with it to the kitchen without saying anything. Güzide just looked after him and didn't understand his action.