Longing or betrayal

~ Understand my feelings! ~

~♤~

G: Ozan! I bet you! Don't go.. don't.. go. -bet him with her all strength. She felt that left her the remained strength and the dizziness and numbness reigned over her body again.

Ozan saw her state and suddenly his angriness decreased and changed anxiety.

O: Mom! -he grabbed her by an embrance movement when saw that his mother almost fell. Everyone was in a desperated state when they saw her semi-conscious state. Ümit and Sezai went to them closer.

Ü: Sister! Are you okay?! -took her face into his palm and asked.

S: Güzide! Zeynep bring a glass of water! Ozan, come on! Go with her inside the house. -said it with incredibly fear as he was aware of her bad condition and what would happen with her.

G: I'm okay.. -she said with a weak voice while everything revolves around her. It was a sign of her disease, she pointly know about it, but didn't want to know anyone her bad state. She tried to calm herself down while Ozan and Ümit started to accompany her back to the house with fear and care. Sezai went behind them with the same fear and attention. He know that these problems just increase her anxiety and it would be a bad effect for her health and with it turn out more complicated effects of her disease.

They went inside, the atmosphere wasn't tense like before but the fearness mixed in the air.
She sat down on the couch and started to calm everyone down. The symptoms of her disease started to ease. Zeynep brought the water and Güzide drank it. Ozan squatted next to while Ümit sat beside her. Sezai and Zeynep also looked at her with attention.

O: Mom, how do you feel? -asked with worriness.
G: I'm fine, son really. Don't worry. It happened because of the pressure. -when she said it looked at Sezai, who exactly knew why it happened. He kept her secret because of her, but he felt the best decision would be to tell it to her family. However, he can't take this step without her permission. So, he decided to speak with her about it and try to convince her about it later.
Ü: Sister, I know that you don't want to go to the hospital, at least let me to call a doctor to examine you. -said while stroked her on the back.
G: No, no Ümit. I'm really fine. I said why it happened. That's it.. -she turned to Ozan and tried to convince him again. -My son, Ozan.. please don't do anything against your father. -stroked him on his head.

Ozan nodded her while looked in her tired but the same beautiful emerald eyes.

O: Okay mom, I accept your point.. -said it to her because not want to cause her any anxiety and disappointment, but in the reality his conscience didn't leave him to accept this fact. - Where will we go then? -asked her with concern.

Güzide looked at Sezai with grateful look and the man reciprocated it.

S: To my house Ozan. It's enough spacious. So, come on and pack your things.
O: Okay, thank you Sezai amca. We are really grateful to you! -hugged him and went towards his room to pack the neccessary things while Ümit also thanked him and went up too as Zeynep.

Güzide and Sezai left alone by the children.
G: I also go up and pack my things. -she started to stand up but Sezai went closer and grabbed her hands slightly and sat down her again. The woman looked at him with confused. -What is it Sezai?
S: Sit down Güzide. -the woman sat back while the man took her hands in his and sat down opposite with her. -do you feel better really? -asked with doubting.
G: Yes Sezai, don't worry. I can control it really. -smiled at his worried state.
S: Look Güzide, I think you should have to tell it your family. They should have to know about it. I say it now for your sake. -glanced at her every time and tried to understand her regard.
G: I don't want them to know Sezai. They also have enough burden. If you weren't with me on that day, you don't know about it either. -she looked at him very seriously and pulled out of her hands from his with gently way. -I go up and pack my things too. -she stood up and went upstairs while Sezai looked after her with worriedly.
S: Off Güzide, why are you doing it? -said it in himself and stayed in his place.

Everyone packed the necessary things and went down where Sezai waited them.
G: We are ready. Later I will come back for my books.
S: If you want I take them now.
G: No, no. I will solve it later. Come on children.
S: Güzide give me the packet. -he wanted to take it from her hand.
G: I take it, it's not difficult. -she went towards the door.
S: Güzide! Give me. -took out it from her hand while she smiled and rolled her eyes. Everyone got into the car, just Güzide stood in front of the gate and looked back at the house. She remembered every kind memories what she spent here, even if she didn't want to admit it, but pierced her heart in pain because of this farewell. Sezai looked at her movements and completely understood what she thinks. Slowly she also got into the car and started their way towards the destination.