Forever Mine

🖤Chapter Nine🖤

Aelia

It's currently November 5th. Two months since my family and I moved in with Mell and everyone else. 

Since then I learned that Terra's, parents are scientists, Noah's mom is also a professor at Patterson, his brother is a year younger than us and also a music major. Lennox's dad is a coach for Pattersons football team, and his mom is a doctor. Lastly, Callie and her husband Henry, who are Kellianna, Killian, and Kiara's aunt and uncle own a weapon shop. 

It took me two months to settle in and get comfortable with not only living in a house with guys, but also being in a house with that many people in general. 

But after getting to know everyone else and getting closer to them, it got easier. I've also been training almost twice as hard as before. I've learned how to harness energy from not only anything electric but also from natural elements themselves. Before you say anything, no I can not manipulate water, earth, air, or fire themselves and make them move, but I can use the electrons that give those elements energy or something like that. 

Is it the same thing?  Probably, but I couldn't really understand anything Terra and Lennox were saying. They got a little too sciencie for me. 

Anyways, I have started to become more confident in myself and my abilities, which I now know is what Kellianna was actually teaching me. Though she did sneak in some styling tips here and there.

And Killian is well... he's Killian. I must say, after that day in the kitchen he has been a tad different. Friendlier, less intimidating. Don't get me wrong he still is intimidating, quiet, and assholish when he wants to be but he's not like that with me as much anymore.  

We can have a conversation with each other without him looking incredibly annoyed and me having an internal panic attack. 

Training has also been different. He's more... focused, strict, kinda uptight. I know he doesn't mean it in an annoying, overbearing, 'you're pissing me off ' type of way. I know he means it in more of a he cares about me understanding how to properly defend myself, and fight if necessary. But it is still a bit annoying.

That same day when we started sparring, he stopped in the middle of him putting me in a head lock to talk. 

You must be thinking, 'That doesn't seem terrible Aelia. What are you complaining about'

Yeah well, he stopped to tell me how much confidence I lacked, and how I needed to fix it.

Okay. He didn't say it like that but he did tell me to stop being so selfless and a people pleaser. Which, if I'm being honest hurt to hear someone else say. 

September 28th, 2024

Aelia 

"Look, I don't want you to think I'm being an asshole when I say this, but it needs to be said." 

I straighten my now frizzy hair before looking up at his eyes. 

"Your lack of confidence in yourself is fucking with your performance." 

Oh wow, that's not what I thought he was going to say. Before I could speak up he continues. 

" I know you can fight better than this, harder, more aggressive. But you aren't because you don't believe you can do it, and you're worried that you're going to hurt me or that I'm going to chew your head off for fucking up. Well listen to me, you worrying about fucking up, hurting me, or trying to please me or others is going to get you hurt or worse killed. So you need to stop. Be selfish, be aggressive, be angry, feel the pain and agony. Allow it to not control you but push you to be better. Fuck what everyone else thinks. Shit, fuck what I think. Care about you, how you feel, and what you want to achieve. So use all the anger you have in that tiny body of yours. Do you understand me?"