Heartbeat (Larry)

Chapter 6

Louis pov
I sat on the bed and waited till harry entered the room with some cookies , juice and sandwich, yummm. "Fanks love" I said and he blushed again and we are in a comfortable silence. "So from where should we start"I questioned."umm.. how much do u know" harry asked me." I ...um.. nothing!??I guess" i replied in an insure tone. Yeah guys I don't know a sh*t how s*x work in plants. He sighed"let me decide what to do and u go on with it" he said and I nodded seems like a job for me 3 hours later well f*ck I'm tired "hazzyy I'm tired and Hungry and weak so somethin' please" l whined". He looked at me and giggled "what's so funny about it huh?" I asked narrowing my eyes playfully." Nothing just u look cute it's just funny to watch soon to be alpha whining like a baby" he answered with a smile,dimples popping out.

"Oh yeah let me help u to giggle more" I said dashed towards him and tickling hom even before he could register he was a laughing mess "haaa.....haaa....heeeaaa...stoooppp.. louiii"he laughed.

I didn't even realise I was above him hovering him he looks so good from this position. Moist eyes puffy red cheeks dimples popping out bunny teeth oh god.all of sudden the situation became tense I started leaning close to him looking in his eyes and then on his plump lips it seems like they are begging to be kissed. My body is on top of him chest touching slowly steadily I leaned and he didn't even pushed me . We're just an inch close..ringggg... My phone rang and he pushed me immediately I stumbled and fell from bed" sh*t u okk lou?" He asked "yeah I'm sorry ... I uh ...am really sorry I think we will meet and continue some other time ok bye!" And I literally ran from the room with harry following me with similar speed."wait.. lou I'm sorry too this won't happen again I promise " he said and I gave him a smile I picked the call while closing the main gate taking my leave.

Harry pov .
Everything happened in a matter of a second he was above mentioned the phone rang and he dashed out saying sorry "wait..lou I'm sorry too this won't happen again I promise" I said and he gave me a smile and picked his call"hello..ele babe.."with this he left . By hearing this l left a pang in my heart it's just he is not mine but still I don't why my heart still desires for him it's stupid it ..just..hurts.. the heart always desires that he cannot have weird right I know I went back and Cooked something for myself it gets so lonely sometimes there was a time when this house in the evening felt full of chaos a good type of chaos .
We used to have family dinner and sometimes watch tv together or play some indoor games everything stopped all of sudden after my father died I miss those days the house does not feel like home to me anymore. Mum is always working, gem is not there most of the time I do have friends but we are not that close it's like they only have me around just because I'm useful for them I know but still I can't help it I'm a human too I need people but at what cost?? I wonder if it worth having such friends even tay is one of them astonishing right even to me when I heard her talking to others that naive I am and I dumb pathetic I am they just my friends because I let them my homework help with studies and is good in it otherwise I'm just a pathetic omega and others just laugh that day I cried to bed and was not able to process for few days and after that just got along with it .

Is this how life should be it's not that I'm not grateful for what I have. I am really but sometimes it feels its not enough I.. its hard to explain this feeling acting like everything is ok with so that others don't worry faking of being alright as smilely all day but at the end of the day it's all fake  it's just a mask. I don't want my  mum or gem to worry about me they already have enough responsibilities with them . I can handle myself but can I ? It's getting harder day by day the person whom I liked the most is not even gonna be mine I know what happened sometimes before was just because of flow .

A tear fell from my left eye I was not hungry anymore and I just went to bed it's not that anyone actually cared if I had food or not everyone is busy in their own world....