Heartbeat (Larry)

Chapter 21

Third person pov
Louis is at the alpha's office in the pack house and the alpha eka his father is sitting on the main chair smoking cigars puffing the air out of his mouth he said " well done my son I'm proud of you. You did right rejecting that pathetic piece of shit this is the best thing you did in your whole life and now I can set you up with someone better that will give this pack a better alliance ".

Louis's hands clenched when he heard his father saying harry piece of shit but he can't do anything about it. "Yes father" and with that he left for his room. He fell on his bed crying his eyes out for everything... every single thing the fact that his father is a really good pack alpha but a horrible mate and Father. He has been abusing his mother since when he mated her he just kept her beside him to show the world how great he is and to make my mum a birth giving machine. He went easy on her when she gave birth to me cause it was already predicted that I'm going to be an alpha but ... everything changed when my wolf first showed at the age of 14 consider it as a curse or blessing but a male alpha that can carry a child I'll be getting rut until I mate with my soulmate depending upon his nature that if he is a dominant or sub or like a carrier or not my instinct will react.. complicated I know and from then onwards the real abuse actually started he hit me, chained me, gave me wolfbane, made me stay with an omega in my rut every torture possible in name of making me strong and I'm even at the age 18 is shit scared of him. I know if I accepted harry he would literally kill him and I can't do that I just can't . I tried my best to take all the abuse so that he cannot harm my sister's and mum but now I'm really tired...tired of everything.
I just want some peace.

Theirs a knocking on my window and I know who the person is .I got up and unleashed the window and Zayn slid in with beer handing me one he said " I thought that it 'ould 'elp" " appreciate man" I  replied we sat on the bed chucking on the beer . Zayn is the only one who knows everything happened to me not even mum knows the details she just knows my father hits me that's all and I'm not planning to acknowledge her with the insight of my pain.

We sat in silence drinking the beer and after the beer ended Zayn left that's the best thing about him he never forces me to say anything to him he gives me time and is not a judgemental asshole he always tries to observe first and listen to both the parties and then conclude on anything . I just enjoy his presence and the silence between us.

The alcohol started to reach my brain and I left drowsy and I laid on my bed sighing closing my eyes today was an eventful day too much shit to handle.

Harry's pov
I stirred and got up from the floor and fuck my body hurts from sleeping in awkward position I head hurts from all the crying and main ..my hearts hurts with the rejection pain and I decided what I need to do ... I'll run away leaving everything not that I'm welcomed here so much the money I earned from my part time job I'll take and leave I know it's not much still I can survive mad then find a job in human society it's not that I have a wolf so it won't be much problem.

I grabbed my bag shoving some clothes and money I saved ann also the money I earned, documents of I ever required and the last job writing Letter to the people once I loved more than my life.

Hey mum,
I'm going and I'm not gonna come back anytime soon. It's better I'm gone I don't feel welcome anymore I'm with you'll yet I feel so lonely I can't take it and after today's Event I cannot leave in the same house as that man or in the pack where I'll see my mate mating someone else. Do you even remember that last time you had dinner or breakfast or anything with me. You remember when was the last time we spoke properly or we sat together to have a chit-chat. It's like I don't know you anymore and after dad everything around seems so off I can't do this anymore mum I can't keep giving myself hope that everything will be alright or something good will happen or this was all a bad dream and I'll wake to a better reality I feel Iike burden I'm leaving mum for good I'll always be grateful for what this family did to me. You don't know I got myself a summer job at the garage or that I'm recently working in the bakery you Don't even bother not that I complain it's just so saddening that nothing in my life matters to anyone around me.i don't know what to say bye mum see you never.

Hey sis,
I know you hate me but I didn't do anything in reality it was all fate and I'm really sorry about it to I also lost my dad my hero not once but twice I miss the old you the old us our friendship but I'm tired of trying to get back things together to make everything right between us I love you sis but this is enough everything has a limit and I reached mine you remember once you said that it would be better if I died rather than dad then your wish has come true sis I'm going you can consider to as Dead...

Hey love,
Your the best dream I ever had and now your just a nightmare. You know why I agreed to you pathetic offer because I love you idiot I loved you even when I knew you can never be mine I just want to have you as mine even when it was all fake just for sometime. Even though I was happy for you that you'll find your mate and have a best life ahead but ...when I turned out to be your mate I was over the moon I thought my prayers were heard I was so happy just for a second..how stupid of me thinking that you'll accept me or anyone out there will accept me . How stupid of me to believe your words that I'm precious or I deserve the world cause in reality all I deserve is pain and luckily your now the main cause of it. I can't stand love, seeing you with someone else I'm going I'm leaving for good but still I wish you a happy and prosperous life ahead and I want you to know that I have loved you since you were 16 and will forever even if you not mine ..bye louis forever and ever.

I wrote three letters not with pen but with pain yet not a single tear left my eyes seems they are over or these people don't deserve my tears anymore.

With that I jumped out of the window to run into the woods but not before just getting a last glance of the love of life so I turned my way towards pack house sprinkling scent neutralizer on me cause even if I'm wolfless or I don't have a personal scent still I can get caught with the smell of my sweat. I don't want to risk anything.

I climbed the tree with struggle that was near the louis's room and peeked in the room lucky me the curtains are open ...but what I saw broke my heart again well .... unlucky me and once again a tear slipped my cheeks I wipped it hurriedly no more crying from now on this is enough it's not even 12 hours of rejecting me and he is making out with that bitch Eleanor I'm so done I'm going with that i climbed down and made my way towards the woods again and now no turning back no matter what I'm determined..