Is That Love?

Ch11 Not So Night Out

The last convo we had changed a lot of things in my mind, but it never affected me and him. Like how I expected that we won't talk ever again but nothing really changed.
One fine morning we are fighting over chocolates or notebooks etc. I was astonished as in why like why the hell is nothing changing between us and why are we stuck at one point in our life.
During the month of February, we had night out at our school. We enjoyed it a lot like unexplainable feelings. Our bus reached the school and when I stepped out of bus I saw several people but my eyes were looking for that one person. I found him!! I found him! The most breathtaking of all. Took all of my senses away. Though he was busy with his friends. I just smiled like an idiot watching him from a distance. Then all of our schoolmates enjoyed playing different games and had our snacks.

We were playing 'The dog and the bone' our stupid friends cheered for us to compete eachother and i was like, this was very unexpected I denied for obvious reasons but..but..but...he was convinced..i saw him coming infront to play and I was astonished with my eyes wide opened like what is happening with me..? As I moved forward to play, he gave me a very intimidating side smile and all my heart could think was "oh shit, am dead right now" but I successfully defeated him in that game.;)

It was late night time when we all classmates were singing songs near bonfire. Somehow by coincidence I sat besides him, like wow my destiny is playing games with me. Here I am singing all the songs as I look at James with the all possible love I could express, and there is him unknown by the fact someone dedicates the lyrics to him. All of my friends could notice and they teased me like anything. This guy didn't knew correct lyrics of even a single song, rather I would correct his lyrics every time he went wrong. He used to smile and laugh on his own stupidities which would be damn satisfying for me. But as we know good times never last for long, thus we had to disperse to our respective rooms for boys and girls. The whole night me and my friends spent in discussing horror stories, sneaking snacks, and talking wholesome conversations. They were all sleepy but I couldn't sleep(like who sleeps on a night out 😞). They thought I couldn't sleep but the truth was that the memories I made with James didn't allow me to sleep the moment I realised this time would never come again.  

The next morning when we were having breakfast before going back to our home I noticed him to be extremely sad and tired sitting alone near dried inactive bonfire where all I could see were the ashes. Though I was highly concerned but I could never muster up the courage to ask him. Yes! I was scared of him, till date I am scared of him. James was somewhere lost in his own thoughts and I was lost in his eyes 👀. The eyes that spoke thousands of words without saying a word...the eyes that comforted yet discomforted my heart. The eyes that were as sparkly as shining river on a Sunny summer morning. The eyes that were available for everyone but me. Oh!! The pretty eyes with even prettier soul being the first view in my Sunday morning was a spectacularly magnificent view I ever had in my life.
We all dispersed back to our buses heading back home, everyone in my bus were singing, shouting with happiness but all I could think was about him (as usual).
"The words being hidden,
And the feelings being forbidden. "