James pov:
James, The marauders bestfriend, Regulus boyfriend, the sunshine boy who's always happy and makes everyone else happy.
Everyone thought James had a perfect life , with nice parents, amazing friends, the most perfect boyfriend. But James is really have a full on crisis James is very much people pleaser tho, he hates himself for it , and once he failed to please Lily, At the time lily was friends with Severus and she didn't like James. James hated it because it killed him , he even tried to take his life away, He harmed himself , never told anyone about it and still is a secret, but regulus is starting to see right through James . James hid it so well , no one's catched on , regulus made James feel like a real person, not a second choice, the only reason why James felt like a second choice is because Sirius would pic Remus over him, Remus would pic Sirius over him , lily was friends with Snape before him and Peter would chose Evan and Barty over James. So James felt like a waste of space and no one has noticed the scars on his arms,even if people did they would think it's from quiditch, people didn't care about James , or that's what he thought. James cries in the bathroom for hours and then would go out and act all happy like nothing happened. Once , regulus listened into the bathroom and heard him cry for hours , and then regulus walked away from the door once James got out and was all smiling, regulus asked James about it. James ended up telling regulus about all of it, he felt like he could trust regulus, but little did he know The marauders, and everyone was outside the door and heard the whole convo station. Everyone whispered about it and looked at James weirdly besides the other marauders and regulus. One of the hufflepuffs says "JAMES YOU SHOULD KILL YOURSELF SO WE DONT HAVE TO DO OUR EXAMS" James says to the hufflepuff " do you want to do the honours off killin me?" , regulus looks at James , and says "James don't , please don't , don't do this please" the hufflepuff goes to kill him but regulus stood Infront of it so it hit regulus', regulus fell right into James hands , everyone walked off, James and Sirius took Regulus to the hospital wing, James sat their anxious, scared. Sirius trys to tell James everythings gunna be fine but James says that it should've been him not regulus. Madame promfey says " sorry for your lost , Mr potter and Mr black" James runs off to find his wand, Sirius chased after him "JAMES PLZ DONT" sirius says. A few days later after regulus death, James has been acting off, all James could see was regulus and all he can think about is that should've off Been him not regulus.
