||its not your fault||Lestappen||

(Chapter 7)

is use of a offensive slur in this chapter. im not against gay ppl, you have been warned.

After his shower he changed to a oversized black hoodie and a pair of boxes and socks, he was invited to a party in a club, he didnt want to go so he texted Pierre back disappointing the French man, 'thats all i can do isnt it disappoint people?' he sighed laying on his sofa not expecting anyone.

there was a knock at his door 'for fuck sake!' he thought angrily. he opens the door to see George Russell his ex. "what do you want George!" Charles hissed. "c'mon Charles don't be like that." the Brit tried to step in. "n-no dont come in." he tried to close the door but George but his foot in between the door. "Charlie i want to play~" George grins. "Leave me alone.." he started to call the first contact on his phone, not caring who it was. "Hello.?" it was Max oh my god. he thought to himself "can you come to my apartment real quick.?" he whispers. Max just hung up and Charles threw his phone. "what was that Charlie?~ getting ready.?" George pushes the Monegasque by slamming the door open, George got on top of Charles. "Listen here you Faggot. i will have my way with you, and you will not shout, call for help, or refuse." Charles shook his head and George slaps him.

George was about to take his top off when he was thrown of Charles, "Watch what your doing Russell." Max glares at George watching him flee away, Max helped Charles up. "did he do anything?" Charles shook his head lying. "dont lie." Max picked up his chin forcing him to look him in the eyes. "Charles." Max said his name with a stern tone making him shiver. "He well.. im not ready to say.. but he touched me inappropriately then but he did things in the past.. i have told someone i promise." he lied yet again saying he has told someone. "Okay Charles now go to bed or whatever im leaving, loser." his tone changed. Charles headed up to his room and went to sleep tired after what George had just done.

The next day he woke up at 1pm to see tons of twitter notifications, George had spread around he's Gay. he was about to cry. "why the fuck has he done that! i wasn't ready!" he started to cry. he started a shower and started to strip, he saw the carving George had did before Max and him even made it to F1 it was a carving done by a knife and it was a G on his thigh. it got infected since George refused to help him after it but instead took it to advantage by raping him or letting him starve and cry/beg for food and water.

he got in the shower grabbing his blade and doing it on his thighs he started by dragging it across the G George had given him. he moved then to his ankles and made more wounds. he got his small dagger and used that on his upper shoulders and wrists by pressing it and dragging smoothly. he turns the shower on letting the blood go down the drain and feeling that stinging sensation.

He could hear his phone going mad in the dining room so he got up to check the supportive messages from his sibling Arthur and Mother while Josh was unsupportive and threatening to beat him harder and even rape him. he screenshots the messages from Josh and started to overthink it all. he wasnt going home at the week they got off from racing he was just going to hide away.

he had many missed calls from friends and so called family. he choose to throw his phone at a wall and order rooms service with the phone in the hotel. he orders a cheese pizza and waits, he asked the guy if he could stay for the week off and they said yes, he took his pizza paying for both food and the stay and locked his door. he sat on his sofa eating it in nibbles and watching a movie, maze runner. he finished maze runner and the scorch trails in one setting which took him 4 hours to eat the full pizza and he didnt feel full he ate it so slow! he smiles to himself.