My rants

Why is love a thing

Strong language!

Also unedited cause it's gonna be like a public diary so fuck it. If I say embarrassing shit then, oh well!

There is this guy that's been in my mind 24 fucking 7. He is implanted in my brain. Whatever I try I can't get him out of there. It's gotten to the point where I just wanna cry. I know sounds ridiculous but it's true. The only thing though is I DONT KNOW A SINGLE FUCKING THING ABOUT HIM. He volunteers at this thing I go to and since its summer I'm not gonna see him until next month. I saw him at the store today which made me flip my shit. I didn't know I had these feelings for him though. I walked past him without saying hi because I was to embarrassed. My legs got really shaky and my heart was beating fast. I started questions the feeling I had on that day and ever since then I can't get the little shit out of my head. I can't be alone cause then I start thinking about him and o get all sad so I gotta find a way to get him off my mind. I then distract myself for a minimal amount of time until he comes back. I'm afraid to approach him because he seems really nice and I wanna get to know him better. (This is starting to sound creepy after typing all of this :/ UGH!). I just want him out of my mind. There's literally two sides of me. The first side is all like "I wanna see him <3"but then the other side is like "fuck you, you little shit for coming into my life." I just needed to get this off my chest cause I've been hurting for the past couple weeks. FOR FUCKS SAKE I BARELY KNOW HIM AND IM OVER HER LIKE -->😍😍😍. It's just sooo.......fustrating.