My rants

Hm

It's crazy cause recently I have came out as a pansexual and I'm finally accepting who I am. I was in denial for about a year. I have a friend that had a crush on me. Now you'd probably think that's not a big deal. Well the thing is she's a girl. Now I didn't have a problem with that and I kind of just thought it would sort of pass. Like, I thought it was just a crush that wasn't a big deal and would pass on. But the thing was is that I felt the same way towards her but didn't say anything. She actually confessed that she liked me. When I say "liked" I mean in the past of course. She told me she didn't like me no more. I was a bit hurt by that. She then got a boyfriend about I think a month later and that sort of crushed me. It honestly hurt me inside. Her boyfriend was also a friend of mine so I couldn't do anything about it. I'd sure be the biggest bitch if I just walked up to them and was all like. "I like her ya little shit and she belongs to me so break up with her and go shove -->🖕🏽 that up your ass." Yeah no. I wouldn't do that. It would be something I'd say but he is someone that was a friend so I just left them be. I remember I was heading to my health class and I seen her playin around with her boyfriend and out loud my rude ass scoffed. I was with my friends and they looked at me cause they thought I was spittin a loogy (however you spell it). I was I bit upset and there was a few times she would text me about how he's such a great boyfriend and that they were gonna go to the movies and do all this shit. I didn't care cause I was a jealous piece of shit. Well one day we were texting and she fell asleep so her brother actually took her phone and texted me. I was a bit confused on why he was texting me but I didn't care. He's 10 I believe so that was interesting. He told me a secret of hers and I was a bit stunned. Now before I tell more a couple hours earlier my friend was over and I told her I was pansexual and I liked my friend. She freaked out and was like "AWWW THATS SO CUTE!" And she told me that she wasn't straight either so yeah. Ok back on the topic. So then the secret was that she still liked me. Then she woke up and he gave her the phone back. (He deleted our messages so that she wouldn't see it). She continued to text me and then actually confessed again saying she liked me still. (What a coincidence). So then I took that chance and told her how I felt. She was stunned and I was quite scared. I literally was going back and forth around my bedroom and shook like I was on the verge of pissing myself. She also told me that she broke up with her boyfriend which kind of hurt me inside cause that sucks. SHE THEN ASKS IF I WANT TO GO OUT WITH HER. Now it would seem bad if I said yeah and I did. Yes I'm a dick but I have an excuse. She will be moving and there is a chance that I won't see her which hurts but things like this happen. So I said yes and now I am currently dating her. I haven't told my family I'm a pansexual cause I'm not prepared and I kind of want to write a song about it. (I play guitar so I'm tryna write a song >~<). As dorky as that sounds I really do want to do that.

Thanks for taking the time to read that if you care. Dosent really matter it's just something that I've had on my mind and decided to spit it out and share it to the world.