Fate's whisper

Regret

Emptiness.

That's all Jungkook could feel. Nothing more.

His eyes were borring on a random Page of the diary. He didn't touch the journal after he read that last entry. The wind did it's job it seems.

Saw him all cuddled up and sleeping.
He was so smolll
My little one.

Below that was another entry

He was whining when I called him that.
Little one. He said he was not little.
Huh. Who cares?
Imma call him little one anyways.
My little one.

Tears stopped flowing. He couldn't find any more in himself to cry. His eyes we're red and puffed up. He don't know what to do any more.

He could feel his heart pain physically. You may have all noticed when, he told that taehyung killed his own brother, all because of what? Just loving jungkook. That's what he knew.

Minjoon told he loved him.
But never once jungkook told him the same.
He couldn't bring himself utter those words to the man. There is always something that stopped him from uttering those words. Hell, he never even thought that he reciprocate the feelings.

He told himself, that he would give a chance for whomever trying to get his attention for the past one year. And so he gave him a chance. Nothing more, nothing less. Sure they shared some kisses. But isn't what he should have done, if he wanted to try and give the chance to the person. He tried. But something felt off all the time.

May be that was the reason that made minjoon ro take extreme steps? Like literally gaslighting him to hate his best friend? To release those inappropriate videos to make the younger vulnerable so that he can take a chance? He had done all that cause jungkook was not ready to get into a serious relationship with him.

Jungkook asks himself whom to blame. Minjoon?

No.

It's himself. He should blame himself.
For not using his brain. For not trusting the elder. For not being there for him when he needed the most. For breaking his heart, not once, or twice but thrice.

Once, when he was with minjoon not knowing the truth.
Twice, when he broke him by not having enough trust and cuting all the ties.
Thrice, when he-
this marriage. This divorce.

Everything seemes to be complicated for the younger. It burns. Everywhere. Wherever minjoon touched him once, when he was alive. Everything.

He trance was broke when a loud ringtone echoed in the whole empty house.

It's his phone in the living room. He has no heart to leave the precious piece of the elder there. He clutched it with his full strength. He was worried that if he loose his grip he would loose the last part of the elder into nothingness.

It's crazy how he changed like this within a few hours. May be he had known that Taehyung didn't do anything? May be he was only trying to grieve for a soul that lost its life for him?

Cause that's all he believed for the past five years. And here, it comes crushing down.

It's a lie. Evey single fucking thing he had believed for all these years is a lie. He have been living in lies.

He was pulled back to the reality again when the phone started ringing again.

Yoongi hyung.

"Jungkook, why are you not here in the office? It's gonna be lunch and you are still not here. " He asked tensely. "Jungkook jun-"