You and I

Eleven

Valerie

I opened my eyes and I watched Lewis next to me sleeping and having his hand on mine, I had the CPAP on my nose

"Lewis" I was trying to talk but I couldn't, my voice was too weak "Lewis please"

His eyes opened and a smile appeared on his face as he watched me

"You're fine" He squeezed my hand "You okay?"

"I'm sorry Lewis" I whispered

"No! Don't ask sorry I have to ask sorry" Lewis stood up "I have to go"

"Please" I grabbed his hand "I love you"

"I love you too but everything happened because of me" Lewis kissed my forehead "Bye"

"Don't go please" I tried to grab his hand but Lewis is much stronger than me so he left and I was watching him walking away

I don't know what do to, how to react, he was next to me after doing the biggest bullshit of my life

People ran into my room: my mom, my dad, Susie and James

"Where is Lewis?" I asked looking at the door

"I think he just left" James replied "You okay?"

"Yes and now I will party" I rolled my eyes

"Don't be mean mausi" My dad kissed my head "You are fine now"

"I'm sorry to bother you, you didn't have to come" I said smiling

"Valerie! Don't say anything like that" My mom said madly "Why did you do that?"

"I had my reason, I want to leave" I looked at James "I have to train for Rome"

"You won't play in Rome you are not physically or mentally capable to do that" James announced "You'll wait until Roland Garros"

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The next day I left the hospital and I went to my apartment in Monaco, my mom already cleaned the house from the drinks and morphine

I was sitting on the couch watching TV with my mom and James next to me

"How long will you two stay?" I looked at them

"Do you want me to leave?" My mom asked and I looked at her

"I want to be alone" I answered

"You don't have fun with us here?" James asked

"You don't trust me?" I looked at them "I will be fine"

"Okay" My mom grabbed her phone to check on the flights to Mexico "No just you know what I am talking about"

"Yeah, I was always against your little cartel and now look at me! I will never do anything like that never again" I said smiling

"That's my girl" My mom kissed my hair "I found a flight I have to go in the airport"

My mom walked in the guest's room and I looked at James

"What happened to Lewis?" I asked "He does not answer my calls or texts"

"I don't know we haven't talk" James sighed "Do you want go in Imola for the next race?"

"Yes please" I nodded "I will call my dad"

"You love Lewis, don't you?" James asked smiling

"Yes" I nodded smiling "I love him"