You Got Power Over Me

chapter 5

Song Rec: Co2 By Prateek Kuhad 

+ Falling By Harry Styles

Choi Do-Il POV-

She aggressively started walking towards the car and just followed her. She turned to me as we reached near the car. Her face was still red with anger but her eyes gave away her look of hurt.

"Look, before you say anything, I know I messed up. I shouldn't have done that. What you do and who you date is none of my business. I am sorry." It was hard for me to accept it but I had to. If she was happy with him, then that's all I needed to know. I wouldn't be able to bear it if I were the reason to hurt her like I did just now. All I have ever wanted for her is to be happy...even if it's without me.

She rolled her eyes and turned her face away in annoyance as if that was the last thing she wanted to hear right now. 

"The problem here is not that you were meddling in my life. But, that you had no right to talk to my friend like that."

"Really? You are still gonna stick with the 'just friends' act. I can clearly see the way you look at him. Don't worry I won't tell In-Hye or In-Kyung until you want me to, if that is why you're being like this"

"Oh", she scoffed, "Now, its my fault that I am being like this. When did you become so unreasonable? If I remember right, you didn't even want to stay in touch through social media. Then, how suddenly, does me having a boyfriend bother you so much?"

"So, it's true isn't it? You two ARE dating. And the thing about not wanting to stay in touch. It was before everything had happened. before Park Jae-Sang and Won Sang-A died. It was to keep both of us safe. To keep In-Kyung and In-Hye safe. I never intended to not ever contact you again."

"WE ARE NOT. And if you REALLY never intended to do that, why did you just ghost me? Why did you not come sooner or even contact me. Was it that hard? You said you'd be without a phone for a few months. A WHOLE YEAR. A whole year, you never messaged, called, or returned."

"I couldn't come because I didn't want to leave the kids alone there. I came back as soon as In-Hye said she was ready."

"Well you left Hyo-Rin alone there. Don't you think she needed an adult more than In-Hye did?!"

"I made sure she was safe. She's taking therapy and has improved a lot. She had to stay back just for one of her last assignments. She'll come back within a week. Besides, she's not alone there."

"Then why?  Why did you even come with me if all you wanted to do was humiliate me in front of my friend? Why did you come?!"

"I didn't mean to do that. I told you that I didn't have anything to do and thought that I could just give you a ride. That just-happened I guess"

"Then why bother coming back to Korea at all?! If there was nothing here for you to do. If it was THAT hard to come here before or to even to contact me, why bother even coming back? You could've just stayed in Greece and never come back. Never contact me, and never seen me. At least then I wouldn't have to go through all the pain."

"Did it hurt that much to see me? Do you hate me that much now for ghosting you?" I said, realizing how dumb and ignorant I had been.

"NO, no I did not hate you. But yes, it did hurt to see you again. To think that everything would turn out just like last time and that you'd leave again" 

What was that about. I thought that she wanted me to leave and never come back. Then why did she say that? Could it be-

"Why? Tell me, I need to know. Why did you come back? You said once, before you left. That you were helping me because it became a habit of yours, I know better than that. You would never do such a thing just out of any habit. Why did you help me then? Why did you protect me? This question has bothered me so much all this time. Why did you do all that if in the end, you just had to leave?", she said with much less aggression in her voice. "Was it because of money?"

"No."

"Then why? Why did you come back again? Why did you want to protect me? Why, why why", she hit me on the shoulders with tears now forming in her eyes.

"You." I simply said.