“I need to read it, I can't not know what she had to say about me.” Mia spoke to the two women they nodded along, holding their own letters in Their hands.
Mia breathed, a deep kind of breath trying to prepare herself as her shaky hands opened the envelope, pulling out the piece of paper and opening it, the first thing she saw was Charlotte's handwriting.
She closed her eyes and breathed again opening them once more to read the letter that her love had taken time to write her
To
Mia,
The first thing I want to say is that this is not your fault, in any shape or form, I think it's mostly mine - I wish I would've reported him sooner, I dont know why I didn't, I see the good in everyone and I know that was a part of my downfall, trusting someone like him - who had no conscience - he didn't even feel guilty.
But that's not what I want to talk about what I want to talk about is you, I love you so much, the moments we spent together I felt safe and comforted, you were there for me when no one else was and continued to be when you needed someone as well.
I knew I was dragging you down with me so I needed to withdraw myself, I loved you too much to continue seeing you in pain of the way I was feeling so I became withdrawn, I'm sorry I had to do this but it felt as though it was the only way to stop feeling this pain that lay beneath me.
Every breath I take I feel his lips on top of mine, I feel his tongue being forced down my throat, i feel his hands all over my body being touched in places i didn't want to be touched not by him, every breath I take I feel him inside me.
It hurts Mia, it hurts so much it felt like no matter how hard I scrubbed my body his touch would still be lingering and I couldn't take it anymore, so I'm sorry, I'm sorry i didn't reach out, I'm sorry Mia, I'm so fucking sorry.
You are the first time that I ever felt as loved as I did, the hearts that shined though your eyes as you looked at me, made me feel seen, the silence you gave me when I talked made me feel heard, our hugs, kisses and every touch you ever gave me made me feel loved and I was loved by you so much, your arms felt safe and comfortable.
But deep down I knew it would've been better if you never met me maybe then you wouldn't feel the pain of losing another, because you have lost so many people in your life and I hate the fact that I'm making you lose one more.
I hate it, I feel weak and like a coward that I'm choosing the easy way out, that I'm doing this to you and all of our friends but it feels like the only choice that I have but my time has come so for now I must say goodbye but remember I'm always in your heart and we'll meet again, I promise you my love.
Love
Your sweetheart x
Mia felt her eyes tear up as she read the letter seeing how much Charlotte was in pain, how bad he had hurt her, how bad he had traumatised her, she felt tears slip out of her eyes as she read the note.
She carefully placed it on top of the table as she looked at the two women who were sitting in front of her, who looked upset at her reaction.
“Have you read yours?” Mia asked, her breath shaky, they both shook their head, it was now Marjorie's turn to look at the words Charlotte wanted to say and she had never felt more scared in her entire life.
YOU ARE READING
No means no (MATURE)
Fanfiction*COMPLETED* Something happens to Charlotte, will she fall or will she survive?
