I released myself from Chloe's arms.
"Chloe, what did we do? Why...why did we do this?
"Beca, it was 'in the moment.' It doesn't mean anything. Nothing at all." She looked at me, emotionless. Nothing? Did it really mean nothing? Did I want it to mean something?
"Chloe... I think... I think that kiss meant more than nothing." She looked at me, she looked a little hurt. She stared down at the floor and started playing with the ring on her finger.
"Beca, if we let last night mean something... we'll ruin everything. Everything with you and Jesse. Everything with our families. Everything with the Bellas..." Everything? We would ruin everything? I thought the Bellas would be happy? Would my dad really care? Jesse? Okay, Jesse would care.
"Look, Beca, I just don't want to ruin our friendship, okay?" She brought me back into her arms, hugging me tightly.
"You're my best friend, Beca, and I don't know what I'd do without you" she smirked, "haha, you weirdo... Look, remember that night in the tent? When I was talking about experimenting? Well, I did it. I experimented. Now it's over. Now it's normal, okay? Okay!"
She looked like a different person saying this. I know Chloe, and I know that everything she just said was a lie. Is she trying to protect me? Does she think I didn't like last night? What the hell is happening to me?
"Chloe, it's okay if last night meant something to you. I'm not mad or upset of anything. I just want to know what the hell is about to happen... You know, with us."
She let go of me this time. She pulled away from me so fast that I almost fell over. She stood up and started pacing back and forth in front of me.
"Chloe, calm down... sit down and talk to me. I just want to know how you feel..." She froze and just started at me, helplessly.
"Beca, why don't you tell me how you feel?" She was starting to sound irritated. " Because I just wanted this to be a one time thing. But noo, you have to bring in all these feelings and make it more than it actually was. So come on, bad ass, you tell me how you feel."
I didn't know what to say. I don't know how I feel?
"I uh.. Chloe...I...."
"Exactly. So just leave it alone, Beca. It was a one time thing. Okay?"
"I got it, Chlo. One time thing. Nothing more." But it was something more. At least, I know it was. Did she feel the same way? Jesse. I need to talk to Jesse. Hug him, kiss him, rekindle the fire, do anything to stop thinking about Chloe. Do I like Chloe?
"Okay, now that that's dealt with... You wanna get ready? We can get the girls and go find some breakfast before we have to go head to the airport."
"Yeah." I answered, I think she could sense the hurt in my voice, because she just stared at me, blankly, emotionless, until I got off the bed an walked into the bathroom.
After washing my face, I stood in front of the sink, staring at my reflection in the mirror. "It meant nothing, Beca." I whispered this to myself about 30 times before Chloe walked into the bathroom with nothing but a towel on.
"You done in here? I just wanna take a quick shower."
Holy hell. She looks effin hot. When did Chloe get so damn hot? Okay, that kiss definitely meant something.
"Yeah, I'm done. Go ahead."
"Okay, want me to leave the door unlocked? Do you need anything in here to get ready?"
"Uhm... no, I'm good. You go ahead. Take your time."
She smiled at me and I backed out of the bathroom as she shut the door. I heard the door lock and the water start. I could hear her singing. I pressed my forehead against the door. "Beca" I said to myself, "what is happening to you?"
I paced back and forth in the middle of the room, asking myself questions out loud, trying to gather my thoughts.
"Do you like her?.. You love Jesse... Jesse. Jesse. Jesse... Where the hell is he?.. Last night meant nothing. Last night meant nothing... but it meant everything. I was drunk. Yeah. Totally drunk. Drunk kiss... but I've never felt anything like this from a drunk kiss before? Maybe I should kiss her when I'm sober? Maybe I'll be able to really know if I feel anything for her then? Yeah, good idea Beca."
Before I knew it, I was standing in front of the bathroom door. I waited for about ten minutes before I heard the shower turn off. I spent that time trying to talk myself out of it. What am I doing? I heard the bathroom door unlock. She opened it and saw me standing, staring into her eyes with no real expression on my face.
"Beca, what are you-" I cut her off before she could finish. I put my hands on both sides of her face and kissed her. I pulled back and whispered, "I'm... I'm sorry. I just had to know if-" She cut me off and pulled me back in for another kiss...
We both pulled away at the same time, catching our breath. Her hands were on my waist. Mine never left her face. Her eyes were still closed from our kiss. She looked at me... In a split second, she pressed her lips against mine again, and used her hands to push me back, onto the bed. Her hair was still wet from her shower, and was dripping all over me. My hands were still on her face. I used one hand to pull her wet hair back. I used the other to rip her towel off. I wrapped both arms around her naked, wet body, and rolled us over so that I was on top.
Chloe's hands were trying to unbutton my shirt. Frustrated with how the buttons weren't unbuttoning, she tore my shirt, and I heard the buttons hit the floor. I liked that shirt.
In the heat of the moment, neither of us heard my phone go off. Someone had texted me, like twelve times. All of a sudden, there was a knock on our door. Chloe and I froze. It was Amy.
"Chloe? Beca? We need to get our bags! It's almost time to get to the airport!" So much for getting breakfast... I looked over at the clock on the bed side table. Holy shit. It was already 1 and our flight left at 3. How long had me and Chloe been making out? Chloe shimmied herself out from under me and put her towel back on.
"Just a second!" Chloe yelled, making her way towards the door. She turned around to look at me before opening it. She looked... she didn't have an expression on her face. If I'm going to be completely honest, she looked kind of mad. When she opened the door, Amy, Flo, and Legacy walked in. All of them looked shocked, their mouths open.
"Oh my gosh..." Flo said, walking slowly into the room.
"Uhm...we can go and come back when y'all are...done." Legacy said anxiously, not even looking at us, shielding her eyes. What was going on?
Amy was smiling. "I see you two were having some fun." She winked and did this weird pelvic thrust thing.
Amy pointed at my shirt. I had forgotten that Chloe tore my shirt open. There were also visible wet stains on the shoulder of my shirt from where Chloe's wet hair had fallen. I looked over at Chloe, whose hair was a tangled mess from where I had been holding it. She was bright red and speechless. Amy and Flo were laughing at us and making jokes, while Legacy stood in the hall with her eyes still covered.
"We can expla-" I started to say, before I was interrupted. Coming down the hallway and turning into the room I heard, "Hey Emily, you okay? Have you seen Be-"... It was Jesse.
