Broken (A Zach Bryan Fan Fiction)

Chapter 19

BRYNN'S POV

Zach drove us home in silence, my hand clutched in his, worry still  evident in his face. Before I knew it we had arrived at his father's place and Zach hopped out of the drivers seat. I sucked in a sharp breath, not sure if I was ready to face anyone else. I was snapped out my thoughts when my door swung open.

"You okay?" He asked gently.

I smiled and nodded half-heartedly at him and hopped out of the seat towards him, stumbling in the process, my legs still weak from the events earlier.

"Easy there killer" he chuckled as he wrapped his arms around my waist to steady me before I landed face first on the driveway.

"Oh thank god" I heard a voice cry out in the distance.

I looked up to see Dewayne running towards us and I instantly burst out into tears as his arms enveloped me in a warm embrace.

"Don't you dare scare me like that again, you hear me girl?" He said sternly.

I nodded in his direction, too scared to look up to meet his gaze.

"Let's get you inside"

Zach grabbed my hand and pulled me gently towards the front door. The house was warm and smelled of BBQ, as we entered the kitchen I saw a pile of freshly grilled burgers on the counter with all of the condiments and toppings you could dream of.

"Eat up" Dewayne said 

"Oh..." I trailed off "thank you, but I'm so tired"

I quickly rushed around both of the boys up to Zach's room locking the door behind me.

I paced back and forth across his carpeted floor wringing my hands together trying to prevent the impending panic attack that was building up in my chest. I continued to pace back and forth as the urge to cut became prevalent. I walked into the attached bathroom and searched around looking for something I could use.

I looked up and was taken aback by who I saw in the mirror. What have I become? I am a shell of a human. My eyes were sunken in and lifeless, my hair dull and brittle, the light that was once in my eyes was gone.

I rushed out of Zach's room and stumbled towards the piano that sat in the living room receiving concerned looks from Dewayne and Zach.

I sat down at the piano and the music overcame me.

Early in the morning I still get a little bit nervous
Fighting my anxiety constantly, I try to control it
Even when I know it's been forever I can still feel the spin
Hurts when I remember and I never wanna feel it again

Don't know if you get it 'cause I can't express how thankful I am
That you were always with me when it hurts, I know that you'd understand

I don't wanna lose control
Nothing I can do anymore

Suddenly Zach joined in, harmonizing with me, but with Ed Sheeran's song Photograph.

So you can keep me
Inside the pocket of your ripped jeans
Holding me closer 'til our eyes meet
You won't ever be alone, wait for me to come home

Loving can hurt, loving can hurt sometimes
But it's the only thing that I know
When it gets hard, you know it can get hard sometimes
It is the only thing makes us feel alive

...

Wait for me to come home...

As that last line left his lips he snaked his arms around my waist and kissed the top of my head.

I relaxed and leaned back into him.

"I'll bandage up your body and your bones and your bad days too. Take care of the blood that your love runs through. I know all the damage that some days in this dark world does. I'll pull you in and hold you tight, love you through the heart of the night..." he whispered in my ear.

I turned around and looked him in the eyes.

"That would make a good song Z"

He chuckled and kissed my neck.

"Come on, let's head to bed"

 I curled up next to him, he arm draped over my waist. I breathed in his familiar scent and drifted off into a dreamless sleep.

"...no, it's not a question, she will be joining us for the remainder of the tour or I will not be in attendance" I heard in the background.

I rubbed my eyes and looked around, the bathroom light was on and the door was cracked open.

I heard his phone call disconnect as he re-entered the bedroom.

"I'm sorry, did I wake you up baby?"

I shook my head no "is everything okay?"

"Everything is good, they are just looking into plane tickets for the two of us. We should get to your place and pack up."

I got up and threw on a pair of Zach's sweatpants and an oversized hoodie as my soaking wet clothes were surely still in the back of Zach's truck.

"We should really fill up a drawer here for your clothes"

I looked at him in shock

"Or find a place of our own" he winked at me

"Zachary" I scolded

"What?" he asked defensively.

"That is not something to joke about" I scolded

"I'm not kidding, we should start looking"

A smile crept up at the thought of Zach wanting to move in with me.

He chuckled and playfully smacked my ass as he headed out of the bedroom with me following close behind him. We headed over to my place and began packing clothes for me to join him on tour.

"We should really drop your lease here" he said abruptly

"And where am I supposed to go when the tour is over"

"Brynn, I'm being serious. I want to settle down and buy a house with you"

My cheeks turned bright red and I quickly put my head down and went back to work.

"Do you not want to move in with me?" he asked cautiously

"O-of course I do, that's a ridiculous question"

"Then what's the problem baby?"

"What if you get tired of me?" I whispered not meeting his gaze.

"I will never get tired of you" he scoffed.

I nodded and we continued to pack in silence.

"Do you ever see yourself getting married?" I asked

"Oh so now you want me to marry you" you said 

"I-I, uh-uhm, It's just th-" I sputtered

He busted out laughing.

"Of course I see us getting married" he said, placing the emphasis on the word 'us'

"All done" I said referencing the packing as I tried to avoid the rest of the conversation.

Zach helped me to my feet and helped me bring all the luggage out to the car before we headed to the airport.

Before I knew it, we had touched down and were heading to his next show.

~WhisperingSpring