adoration to animosity

adoration to animosity part 3:

each word from that note was hurting him like a stab. he immediately got up and entered her bedroom without making any noise. there was she sleeping peacefully with tears of stained cheeks. he felt hurt seeing her tears but he lost himself when his eyes fell on her feet covered with blood and bandages. taking 2 step backwards he held the doorframe and keeping his hand on his mouth he left from there and went directly to his bedroom. he started hitting the wall until his knuckles started to bleed to avoid the pain he was feeling internally.

"why she loves me god WHY!...why i had to fall in love with her ? it would've been a million times easier if i didn't love her unconditionally from the beginning... it would've been different if she loved him instead of me. why I started this battle when i knew i can't bear it.."

he started drinking again sitting beside his bed... he kept drinking. tears were falling from his lashes thinking, remembering, recollecting all those memories they created together. once he was breathing for her and now he finds hard to breath around her.

when that accident from 2 years ago appeared in his thoughts, he threw every bottle in the corner causing it to break. he was dead drunk

suddenly Cheryl opened the door and reached towards him limping... seeing his condition she was terrified. she hurriedly asked him keeping her hands on his cheeks "Jungkook are you OKAY?"

for a moment she forgot what he did to her some moments ago. it's like she can't be mad at him as her love for him always dominates her.

he looked at her with eyes full of tears "why did it have to be you Cheryl....why... how can you do this to him..HOW" he screamed between his sobs with all strength he had.

he was sobbing silently . she couldn't understand what he was talking about. she was getting worried sick seeing blood getting out of his knuckles. he moved her hands from his face when his eyes again fell on her feet again "please stay away from me Cheryl, please. i can't afford to love you... i need to hate you. you know i tried.... i tried to build a big wall of hatred but it keeps crashing down.. let me hate you, please.... i won't be able to able to live......."

to be continued..............