I'm whining.
Complaining.
For you to come back.
I'm just waiting.
For you to come into my arms.
I should text you right now.
I should tell you how strong my feelings are for you.
I should tell you all about my day.
But, I feel afraid.
I don't know why or how.
But I feel like you wouldn't care anymore.
And it hurts.
I know that I'm acting like a teenage girl whose crush just got a girlfriend..
But you aren't taken yet.
That's the only difference.
Besides the fact that I have a rival.
Besides the fact that they feel bad for me.
Like I'm a dog.
My pride hurts just thinking of them saying that.
I really... Should....
Get
My
Feelings
Under
Control.
Or
Else
I
Might
Explode.
I might be really...
Selfish.
And I feel bad.
And unworthy of you.
Even though you're not that nice.
But you're still nice to me.
I wish you were all mine.
So I could hold you in my arms all day,
Without worrying about them.
Without worrying about if they texted you.
Without worrying about what your feelings are for me.
Aah....
I'm crying now.
This is sad.
I think that I'll stop writing these letters for now.
Until you come back.
Even though you probably wouldn't read them all.
