LOVE: Pain or Cure

11. Trauma

Present
Sameer was consoling me. "He was on his knees, begging me to stay but I didn't listen to him. I left him heart broken there. I said I have never loved him. How can I say that?" I said and started crying.
"But you love him, right. You still love him?" Sameer asked.
"'Still'! When did I stop loving him? He's my life, my everything and I killed my life with my own hands. I feel helpless for whatever I had to do but I didn't want him to die. It was for his safety. Although I broke him, but maybe he move on and at least he's safe."
"What about you? Are you alive? You are just breathing but the life inside you is dead."
"How is my life dead? Kabir is there, na. My life. My life is absolutely safe. But looks like my life is going to be someone else's soon. He has a girlfriend, Sameer." I said and started crying.
"I love you, Mr. Kabir Shekhawat." I said and kept crying. I started trembling and sweating. After that, I blanked out.

Author's POV
Samaira started trembling. Sameer got frightened and called the doctor. He also called Dhairya and Neeyat. He took her to her room and made her lay on the bed. The doctor arrived and started checking her. The whole 'Quad Squad' had also arrived. Her family members were not at home. They were out of state.
The doctor came out of her room and said, "She had got a panic attack. Her health is poor. Looks like, she is traumatised about something. I have given her the injection. She will get up after some time. I've also written the medication. Kindly give her the medicines on time. Also, don't make her remember anything she's traumatised about."
Doctor said and left. Everyone came inside. There was only the 'Quad Squad'.
Dhairya and Neeyat asked Sameer about what happened. He told them everything.
"She's really strong." Dhairya said.
"Really, our Dove has tolerated a lot." Neeyat exclaimed. Dhairya went to buy the medicines for Samaira while they both were in the room with her.
Samaira got up and Sameer gave her the water. "What had happened to me?" She asked Sameer.
"Nothing, you are just weak. The doctor said that you are not having proper meal. That's why, you passed out."
"But I was fine during the poetic battle. What happened after that? Why can't I remember something?" She asked and the three friends exchanged a look.
"Arey, you passed away, na. Ab murda bnde ko kya pta ki wo kb, kaise tpk jaye?" Dhairya said and Neeyat started laughing.
( Now, how will a dead person know how and when they died?)
"I am not dead yet." She said being irritated.
Aur marke bhi atma bn kr apna bdla lungi tujhse to. MATHS!
(And I will exact my revenge from you even after dying.)
"Wo to theek hai chudail. Lekin ye MATHS kya hai!"
"Chimpanzee, tujhe yeh bhi nhi pta. Meri atma tumhe humesha satayegi!" She said and everyone started laughing.
"No wonder, Maths is your favourite subject." Neeyat said.
"It really matches with you." Sameer said.
She huffed in anger and they continued to laugh.

After one month

I have agreed to get married to Priya. I don't want to do it but for the sake of my parents. And also, there's a hope that she might help me to move on. I feel so betrayed remembering my past. Maybe someone could heal me.
My brother Vikram has also returned from Italy. My wedding is in a week. Most of the special relatives have arrived. They will stay in Shekhawat mansion till the wedding.
Today, there's a party for the announcement of wedding dates. My brother is really excited for my wedding. He hasn't seen Priya yet. So, he will also meet her today.
"Are you sure you want to get married?" Vikram asked.
"As if I have any other option."
"Kya karen talab hi aisi hai!" He remarked and I rolled my eyes at him.
"Stop these lame jokes of yours and get ready for the party. Also, wear something good so that someone can also like you. In this way, maybe both our twin's wedding will take place at the same time."
"Great idea! Buddy. But there's a girl I already like."
"Who's she? You never told us anything about her."
"I met her in India only. I will tell you about her after the party."
"Okay." I said and went to get ready for the party.

I am getting ready to go to Kabir's wedding announcement party. Although, it looks weird, but I have to move on. He's safe and that's all I want. I feel heartbroken also but I can't be selfish about something that concerns his life. Kabir's mom knows my mom well. That's why she has invited me. Dhairya and I are going there. Neeyat and Sameer have gone to some business party. That's why, they can't join.
I am getting ready in a gown and tied my hairs in a ponytail.

Dhairya had arrived. He called me and I went outside.
"Dove, Do you really want to go?" He asked.
"Yes, I want to."
"Are you sure? Do you know where we are going?"
"Yes Dhairya, I do. And I am sure that I want to go to his wedding announcement party. Now fine."
"Now, that's like our dove." He said and I laughed.
"Just think of someone attending the wedding announcement party of their love or their ex!" He said sarcastically while driving.
"Shut up and concentrate on driving."
"Fine." He said and focused on his driving.