His Spur-of-the-moment Decision

Chapter Eighteen

[Theresa's POV]

I went out to the gardens and let out the tears I was trying so hard to keep in. I fell to my knees not being able to control my emotions. I thought I would be strong if I ever got to see them but I couldn't, all that was in my head were the nightmares playing all over again but this time they were visible and real and were coming back to hunt me.
I felt an arm over my shoulder and I leaned into him and poured out my heart.

"Shh..I'm here. I'm here." He kept saying those words until I calmed down.

"I'm sorry.." I sobbed

"There's nothing to be sorry for."

"Why?" I asked

"Why what?" He asked confused

"Why did you defend me? You didn't have to."
He hugged me and gently kissed my forehead but said nothing.

"You have guests to get back to." I reminded him

"Do I?" He joked but I was too weak to muster even a chuckle.

"You do." And besides I'm still mad at you.

"Hey," he tilted my chin to look at him "no one's going to hurt you here, okay?"

I just nodded. As if. Isn't he hurting me already? I can't blame him though, he said not to fall in love but I did and I knew what I was getting myself into the moment I let myself fall for him but like I said, I can't blame him.

I stood up "I'll be heading upstairs to get some rest."
He nodded "Do you need me to come along?"

I shook my head and left. I didn't know which room to sleep in. His room? Where I've been sleeping in? Or my room? If I stay in his room, it's like everything's okay between us which it is not and if I stay in my room, I'll be too scared to sleep because I am shaking. My feet found their way to my room and I stepped in, changed and got into bed. I didn't close my eyes cause I couldn't. Today was just a reminder that I'm always going to be rejected and it's only a matter of time before Mevrick does the same. He only has me because of his work and the media to be off his back. When I'm no longer of use, all he has to do is look for something meaningless and dump me.

Tears rolled down my cheeks and I didn't bother to wipe it. What's the point? More are just going to keep coming. My heart ached as it dawned on me that I'll always be alone. I heard my door open and close silently. I knew he was the one and he got I to the bed and placed a hand around my waist and pulled me to himself. I made sure I didn't let him know I was awake. I felt his hot breath on my neck and he whispered

"I know you're awake."

I just sighed too broken to speak.

"You know I'll always be here for you matter what, right?"

I scoffed at what he said "As if." I muttered

I felt him sit up so I turned to face him. "I mean it." He told me "I'm not your family and I'm not going to just dump you or cast you aside."

"Oh really? Then what happens after the contract's over? Hmm? What happens then?" I challenged him

"Things don't have to be this way." He lowered his voice

"Yeah, you're right they don't. So stop sending me mixed signals!"

"Mixed signals?"

"Yes! One moment you act like you care, the next like I'm your sister, the other like I'm nothing but a meaningless girl and other times you look at me like I'm the only person in the world and after that you grow cold and say words that hurts to the core! So yeah! Stop sending me mixed signals!"