Ocean of words

Your Name...

The sky is gleaming,
My souls is screaming Your Name,
My heart stops beating
when I look at all those
traces that you left behind,

All those days when I recalled
Your Name,
I had a smile on my face
and some sparkles in my eyes

Even now when I recall
things about you,
I have a pretty smile on my face
but instead of sparkles in my eyes
I had sparkling tears
running down from my eyelids
to my cheeks and my chin...

You did abandon me,
But we still had some happy memories.
You did make me cry,
But at some point in my life you made me smile.

The promises I made to you,
I couldn't keep them firmly
for I may have disappointed you.
The mess which was caused by me,
I couldn't clean it up properly
for you may have hated me.
The strength that I had, Given by you,
I could fight anything bravely
for I may have been loved by you.
The miscommunication that we had,
I couldn't notice it clearly
for you may have forsaken me.

Was renouncement the only option?
and
was it the right decision and the accurate solution?

I can't breathe...
There's something in my throat
that's suffocating me.
Thoughts in my mind
they're incinerating my soul,
Beasts in my nightmares
they're trespassing into my heart,
It's about to tear apart...

You didn't make me feel much special
But you did make me extremely happy
and maybe in that happiness which was lame
I felt special
and branded my soul,
Your Name...