angst horror squad

insecurities

I Am So Jealous Of You...

' Nurul '

Just look at Fluffie...he was very prettu even tho he was a guy . What did he use to look that pretty ? he always have everyone wrapped around his fingers tight. I wonder how did he do that. I want to be like you so damb bad. How can you be things i want ? It's not fair. I want it too...You have such a nice eyes , your smile will always make everyone fall. Your soft looking hair...Your flawless skin. Your goddamn white skin. Your pretty flawless skin. Those perfectly white and clean teeth. The soft gaze you give to people. You got praise everyday by everyone. You're kind , cheerful , happy , lucky. You have a nice attitude. Unless like me... I was rude. always grumpy looking girl. bad. I have no such a nice face , goodlooking frame. I don't get praise often. I don't  attract people like you do. You always catch everyone attention without trying. Always a sight for sore eyes. I want to be you...it's ruining my life. I hate it i want to he you so much.

' Fluffie '

Look at her...she was very pretty , the fact that she didn't even have to try amaze me more...why would she hide such a nice face ? that soft voice...i wish i have such a nice face like her that angelic voice...her laugh...oh my god her laugh...the way she laugh must me the softest laugh I've heard...why can't i laugh like that . I saw the way she act in the theater show that day...Why can't i act like her ? She can plays piano , she get good frades , pretty smilles , nice and kind friends. I was lonely most of the time...they only likes me because i have a millionaire father. They're not a real friends. Why can't i play well in piano ? Why can't i be smart like her ? Why can't i have a pretty face , smile and laugh ? Why can't i have some nice and kinds friends like she have ? I want to be you...it's ruining my life.