angst horror squad

In Your Laughter

Idk how to put this- i think this is just a flashback kott-

Ryan and Toro was very close no one ever saw Ryan without Toro and Toro without Ryan. They always joke around smiling and giggling and laughing. Never without a smile even though they were studying they always find a way to entertain each other.

They usually hang out together Toro know Ryan's problem and he'll always find a way to solve those problems. But Ryan never know Toro's problem. Plus Toro always say he was fine. No one ever know Toro have a toxic household. His parents never showed Toro love nor care about him all they want to see is Toro having high score on every quiz , test and exams. If not , Toro will get hit or starve for days , even worse locked Toro in his room with no food and water except toilet, Toro always sneak in snack in his room incase these things happened. Toro was so tired. He want to escape but he don't want to ask for anyone help , he don't want anyone to know what's going on inside his house , behind the close door. So he put a fake face on and laugh with his friends. Especially Ryan

Ryan was his only reason to keep living. His source of light in the dark. His kind of pill to keep him sane. But sadly Toro couldn't bare the pain anymore , it's becoming too much. He could feel his intrusive thoughts start to win. He lost his spark to live. He was giving up and Ryan was clueless. Because Toro , won't open up to anyone.

( eii let's say Malaysia ni ada lebih dri panas dn hujan- let's say it's almost winter so the breeze becoming colder )

It was lunch time but Toro don't feel like eating so Ryan didn't eat too he followed Toro to the rooftop instead. Drinking soda and joking around like usual. " Kau tak sejuk ke ? " Ryan ask , the cold breeze hitting them softly. " tak , sebab baju aku tebal. tu la , dah tau dah nak winter pakai baju nipis lagi " Toro replied sipping the last liquid in the soda can.

" nak tanya kau ni , bole tak ? " Toro ask , wanting to ask this question for a long time , wonder how will Ryan reply when he ask the question. Ryan hums softly as a yes. " kalau aku mati kan , kau okay tak ? " Toro asked looking at Ryan , heart racing with thoughts. Ryan smirked a little and chuckle lightly. " I think I would be fine , sebab nanti aku tak payah dengar lawak karut kau lagi " Ryan said jokingly and Toro just chuckle. Although he felt his heart drop a little from the answer. " Tapi kan , Jangan mati dho , Nanti sape nak teman aku buat benda bodoh ? " Ryan said as they both laugh at Ryan's joke and they laugh and talks a few more time.

Toro suddenly stood up and stretch a little " Aku happy sangat dapat kenal kau Ryan , kau buat aku lupa dekat masalah aku " Toro confessed walking close to the edge of the rooftop Ryan thought Toro just want to see the view like they always do. " Tapi... aku dah tak boleh tahan sakit ni kalini " Toro said making Ryan feels uneasy and stood up walking closely behind Toro. " Toro- Jangan buat benda bodoh , please - " Ryan pleaded his voice desperate. " Aku mintak maaf Ryan- Aku dah tak boleh , tapi aku janji aku akan datang balik in a greater version. Aku janji " That was Toro last words before jumping off the building and Ryan couldn't reach to stop him. His mind was blank and couldn't process what is happening. He rush down just to see Toro bloody body.

Toro...- no..