7:39pm Monday, May 13, 2013
I felt a lump form in my throat at her words. She was right; the opinions of others didn't matter as much as the people who truly cared about me. But the thought of facing the backlash from breaking up with Calum still frightened me.
I closed my eyes and let out a shaky breath before looking back at her.* "But what if everyone turns against me? What if I'm alone after all's said and done?" She gently rubbed her thumb against me cheek, "Do you really think I'll leave you?" I looked at her, the sincerity in her voice easing some of my fears.
I sighed, realizing the silliness of my question. "No...I suppose not." I looked down at my hands, feeling a mixture of hope and anxiety. The idea of having her by my side...it was tantalizing and terrifying. "Thats what I thought.." I chuckled softly, feeling a sense of comfort in her certainty. She had a way of making me feel like everything would be alright, even in the midst of uncertainty.
I reached out and took her hand, intertwining our fingers. Her touch sent a jolt of electricity through me, and I couldn't help but smile. She gingerly pulled both hands away from me and lightly chided me, "Nothing physical, remember?" I felt a pang of disappointment as she pulled her hand away, wanting nothing more than to feel her touch again.
I pouted slightly, but nodded in understanding.* "Right... nothing physical... yet, I guess." She hummed in agreement with a small smirk on her lips. I let out a sigh, leaning back against the wall once more, trying to keep myself from reaching for her hand again. I shifted slightly, feeling antsy from the lack of physical contact between us. We sat in silence for a few moments, the tension between us palpable. I could feel her presence beside me, her body heat radiating towards me, and it took everything in me not to lean into her.
Unable to bare the silence any longer, I turned to her, my voice low and almost a whisper, "You're driving me crazy, you know that?" She laughed a bit and turned to look at me. "I haven't even said anything yet~" she teased. I rolled my eyes at her response, feeling both frustrated and amused.
"It's not about what you're saying, it's about what you're NOT doing. You're sitting here, so close, but I can't touch you..." I said, my voice strained with desire. She only replied with, "That's a you problem." And a smirk on her face. I let out a frustrated groan, feeling like she was enjoying teasing me. I leaned in slightly, my voice dropping to a whisper.
"You're enjoying this, aren't you? Seeing me struggle to keep my hands off you." I hissed playfully. "Oh, very much so." She responded with a smile. I clenched my fists, the desire to touch her growing by the second. She was enjoying this little game of tease-and-denial, and it was driving me crazy.
"You're maddening, you know that? Tormenting me like this." I accused, my voice slightly hoarse. "Break up with your boyfriend and I might kiss you." She shot back. I felt my heart skip a beat at her words, my mind going fuzzy with desire. The thought of kissing her, finally being able to fully be with her, was tempting beyond belief.
I closed my eyes, trying to steady my breathing. As much as I wanted her, I knew I had to think clearly. "And what about Calum? The fallout...the guilt..." I asked, my voice wavering slightly. "You'll have me. And until Calum goes back.. alone, no one will know..." she said softly and whilst putting emphasis on the word alone.. I felt a pang of guilt and worry, imagining the look on Calum's face when I broke things off. But the thought of finally being with her, of having her all to myself, was too tempting to ignore.
I took a deep breath and nodded, my mind made up.
"Alright...I'll do it."
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