Jiara P4L (english version)

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KIARA'S POV:

This morning when I woke up with JB next to me I didn't remember anything, then I saw my clothes thrown on the floor, looking around I realized I was in a bathroom, from how my back hurt I realized I had slept there, when I looked at me I found myself completely naked and then I remembered the whole night before, the crying, the mistakes, the decisions made without even thinking about it, the regrets... and the sex, I had sex with JB, my best friend and... the best friend of the one who, until yesterday, was my boyfriend. Once I was dressed I ran away, took a taxi and went home, I ate two biscuits and then I started thinking about the fight with JJ, my sudden decision, the tears in his eyes... fuck he must be really sad. I know he's the one who made the mistake, he left me at home alone once I woke up, he didn't look or speak to me all morning, he defined the most beautiful evening of my life as a "mistake"; but I still feel guilty, I didn't make him talk when he tried to explain me, I gave him only one chance to talk to me and I didn't even let him finish... I absolutely have to talk to him, apologize, clarify. I run down the stairs of the house, my mother looks at me worried and I hear "Kie where are you going?!" I stop running and look at her in panic, she doesn't want me to talk to JJ or the other Pogues but I can't think of any lies, I look into her eyes, she had already understood "Kie, if you go to the Pogues, don't bother to returne home... never again" I look at her scared and a little dismayed "Mom but..." "No buts!" I can easly see she's angry "I've never been more serious, I don't want you to talk to them and you know it very well" she's right, I know it very well, but I don't care, I absolutely have to talk to JJ. I look at her with wet eyes, I think I could start crying at any moment, I'm feeling too many emotions at once, anger, remorse, sadness... fear, so much fear "I'm sorry" I tell her, letting a tear slide down my cheek, then I start running...

JJ'S POV:

I run without looking back, without thinking, I go towards Nina's house, I don't know what to expect, I don't know what could happen if Shara's dream wasn't just a dream, I don't even know what would happen if it was just a dream. When I finally arrive my lungs burn, I can't breathe. I look into the house from the blocked door and the windows, which are also blocked, "Nina! Nina are you there?!" no response, the light is off, some curtains are drawn; I leave the house and head to the garage, Nina's car is still here while her parents' car isn't, I have no idea where she could be but definitely not at her house. I start running again, this time towards my house, I risk falling more than once, tripping over my own feet, when I reach my destination my legs can no longer support me and I fall to my knees trying to find my breath again, tears rolls down my eyes she's not even here. I walk away from my house, I have to go back to Shara, maybe she will know where I can find Nina.

KIARA'S POV:

I'm continuing to run but I'm not sure where to go, at the second crossroads I see I turn left, I took the road that leads to the Pogues' hideout without even thinking about it. It takes me five minutes to get there and when I get there I'm still out of breath, I struggle to breathe, my eyes burn, tears start to wet my cheeks, I look everywhere for JJ, but he's not there 'he will he be at his house' I think, and I start running again, this time I'm sure I'll find him and yet when I get there something tells me that I won't find him, the door is open but the lights inside are off and the curtains are all closed. Obviously, after another 15 minutes of searching, I understand that JJ is not here; I look around, I don't know where to look for him anymore, I think of JB, then I remember what happened last night and I decide not to even try to look for him 'come on Kie think! Where could JJ be?' Then the beach comes to mind, he could very well be there, he spends three quarters of his life on the beach. I start running towards the beach but after less than 50 meters my legs give out and I find myself with my face on the ground, I have a lot of difficulty getting up, but I know I have to succeed, so I gather what little energy I have left, I get up and I start running again with tears in my eyes that prevent me from seeing, my knees are burning due to the scratches I got when I fell, when I get to the beach I'm exhausted, my legs can no longer support my weight and I almost lose the balance. I start to walk again and finally after 10 minutes I see a shadow "JJ?" the shadow approaches me and then I hear "who is it?" I approach in turn "oh Kie it's you." I raise my head to see who is talking to me, it's not JJ, it's Nina, I look down shocked and then I hear her saing "why are you looking for JJ? What do you want from him?" I look up, I hate Nina, I've always hated her, she's one of those snooty rich girls where what you do or have is never good, one of those who always wants more "he's my boyfriend" I tell her in a rather grumpy way, she looks at me as if she were trying to understand if I was joking or not, I see the hint of a smile on her face which quickly turns into a laught "I don't think so! Poor, little, defenseless child."

NINA'S POV:

"At most you were" Kie looks at me as if she doesn't understand what I'm talking about then I automatically snort 'these Pogues don't understand anything at all, what do they have instead of brains?' I look at her like one would look at a defenseless puppy "since I find you lacking in understanding, I'll explain what happened better" I stop for a moment to enjoy his furious expression and then continue with a sigh "Last night JJ and I had sex, we did it wildly, he fucked me like he had been waiting for that moment for so long that he couldn't resist anymore, he literally destroyed my pussy, just talking about it I'm already wet, you have no idea how much I want to feel his friend inside me again" I close my eyes and I let out a sigh mixed with a moan at the thought of JJ's cock inside me once again, when I open them again Kie is standing and says to me "how could you" his expression is the same as that of serial killers in their TV series I watch on Netflix but I don't worry, Kie wouldn't even hurt a fly "what do you mean Kie? Do you think I forced him? Well it's not like that, last night I went to JJ's house to talk and he was the one who pushed me against the wall and fucked me like there was no tomorrow" now her eyes are bursting with fire and my worry is starting to rise, I feel she gets closer and closer so I decide to move back and at a certain point he starts running towards me, I run away, I don't know what else to do and I hear myself shouting from behind "YOU! SLUT! I KNOW IT'S YOUR FAULT BITCH! JJ WOULD NEVER HAVE DONE THIS! HE WOULD NEVER HAVE FUCKED SOMEONE LIKE YOU!" I run away in panic, I pass in front of the beach bar, I'd never done it, I look behind me after passing the bar and I see her, I see Kie hovering over a knife placed on the balcony, I stop as if petrified, she looks at me, looks the knife, then looks back at me, a rather strange grin makes its way onto his face, he grabs the knife and slowly approaches me, "HEY SLUT! YOU WANT TO PLAY?" I step back but I fall, I look at her and beg her "Kie please stop, I'm begging you..." "SHUT UP YOU UGLY BITCH!" he shouts in my face and then sits on top of me, "So you really like to fuck, right? Good" I feel her hand lifting my dress and lowering my underwear, I feel her penetrating me with two fingers "do you like it, slut?" then she inserts another finger, I'm panting, my mind doesn't feel pleasure but my body does, and I can't stop it, I feel that the lower part of my belly is slowly getting moist, and when he inserts the fourth finger too a moan makes me it comes out of my lips, but when she puts it in too I scream, it's a scream mixed between pain, pleasure and fear, but she covers my mouth "shut up bitch, you won't let anyone hear us" then she inserts her whole hand inside me and I momentarily think I'm dying, I scream, I scream as loud as I can, but I know that no one can hear me, not with my mouth closed, "hey little bitch, do you want to do something more dangerous?" she takes the knife and shows it to me, now I'm in total panic, I murmur, or at least I try to murmur "no please, no" but she laughs and sticks the blade of the knife into my entrance, I scream at the top of my throat while the blood starts to slide "you know what, little slut, I don't want to play with you anymore" I sigh "oh there's no point sighing, what do you think I should do with you now that I don't need you anymore? Do you think I'll let you go, so that you can freely report me? Oh no, you can forget it, I think I'm going to kill you" my heart skips a beat, I tense up "do you have something to say you little slut?" he takes his hand out of my mouth "Kie please don't do this, I'm pregnant, don't kill me please, please" she rolls her eyes "are you pregnant? And the baby is JJ's?" I nod, I see a tear rolling down Kie's cheek, her lips are trembling, tears start to flow from her eyes faster and faster "you... you don't deserve anything except death!" she raises the knife "NO! NO KIE PLEASE DON'T DO IT!" she screams, more than a scream it seems like a yelp, that awful noise that dogs make when they are hurt, then she lowers the blade of the knife and plunges it into me, she takes it out and then plunges again, again and again in the end I don't see nothing more, I feel a last sensation of cold, a shiver down my spine, and then nothing more, just a great, strange sensation of relief.