Welcome to the AMBERs - "Welcome to my Mindpalace."

First Words

First of all, I am going to explain and answer some questions you might have. For us, it is important that you understand our situation and how we feel towards it.

What is a Mindpalace?
A Mindpalace is a space inside of your head, made for the sides to live in. People often view it differently and can't always picture the same way of it. For others, it's minimal and perhaps just a whitespace or even a backspace. For the ones, it's perhaps Abstract-ish build or even a full-on structure like a house or something. Like I said before, it's always different for each person.

What is a side?
A side is a being/ human that lives inside the Mindpalace and helps/makes the body function whenever the host (is literally the owner of the body so it's you) returns. It is different again from each Mindpalace. In some cases, the host is more active than the sides, and in others, it's the other way around. For us for example, we haven't seen the host in years, so we try our best to keep the body going. And since some have more than one, the different personalities they have help with solving problems that the body is struggling with or making it worse.

Some Mindpalaces have an extra hierarchy. For example, we have on top the Emotion side, the most powerful. Then, underneath, we have a caretaker and gatekeeper. Underneath caretaker is also health and anxiety. Under gatekeeper, we have Logic and Protector. Last but not least, we have the Inteusive thoughts. They actually have also quite the power in the mindpalace even when they are here quite far down...

Isn't it just the same as a DID?
Not exactly. Even when it is sounding similar, it isn't. Normally, when you would talk to a different identity in DID, it would work differently.

"Someone with DID has multiple distinct personalities. The various identities control a person's behavior at different times. The condition can cause memory loss, delusions, or depression. DID is usually caused by past trauma."
--- Google research for DID

As for sides, there is no actual entey for the explanation what it is and what it caused and where it came from. I have to say that that sides itself aren't just personalities in your mindset. They are actual people sitting there and helping you live. You can actually imagine their existence and actual function like the Inside Out emorioms; Joy, Anger, Fear, Sadness, and Disgust. However, it again works differently for each person. They have been with you since the beginning. Some go since they're not needed anymore, and some get thrown into this Mindpalace since the mindpalace thinks they are needed and important. And others just show up after years. Again, it's always different for each person.

Why not tell everyone in the first place?
There is the fear of getting mistaken as a DID. I, for example, can tell you that it got mistaken for DID with us. Ans to be fair, I can see why people think it's DID. However, insulting us for "Faking" DID just for "Attention" is not what what Sides are. People often bully people with sides since people often say, "ATTENTIONSEEKER!" "YOU FAKE IT FOR ATTENTION!" "YOU DONT HAVE SIDES! GROW UP!" and so on. Of course, we tend to just stay silent and not tell anyone because we are scared of getting insulted or similar.

Do I have sides myself? How do I get them?
This is something only you can figure out. I can't give you sides. Neither can someone else. Only you can feel or hear it. (I sound like a crazy person. I am so terrible sorry for this-) They will appear or not. However, I can't give you soem since it's not like a parasite or something.

What sides do you have?
I would love to introduce you to them!

Paint (Pan/Poly, They/Them (NB))
Paint is our Emotion-Side. Most powerful and can literally feel each side around and can tell you where they are. Often, with their moodswings, they can even drag everyone into the same mood.

Claus (Gay, They/Them (NB)
Claus is our gatekeeper. Underneath Paint in the Hierarchy, they are the second powerful being in this mindpalace. Claus can decide to lock a side away when they're too much and have access to a lot of shit. As well as paint does wirh the subconscious.

Mauryce (Gay/Poly, He/Him (doesn't know yet))
Mauryce turned into a side recently. He took over the place from Orion, who was the caretaker before. As a caretaker, you look out on the body and make sure it feels healthy and safe. He also makes sure that each side it feeling fine (even when this isn't his job, but he wants to do it).

Edric (Gay, He/Her/Them ((Genderfluid)
Edric is out so-called Ultimate OG. They were there since the start. She saw everything. And he is now from Gatekeeper over to Logic. They thought that it would be easier to let someone who can take so much responsibility take this one over. And he is perfectly fine with Claus doing it. Their job now, as the name Logic already says, is to be logical and educate individuals if needed. He himself also knows that you can't go over boundaries or limits... even when it's hard for her to understand it sometimes... she still tries...

Anthony (Pan,Poly They/Him ((NB)
Anthony was our Protector AND our intrusive thoughts. To be fair, I can understand the struggle with keeping the body safe and killing it. This mix is hell. However, for 3 days now, he has been only the Protector of this body and is doing a good job.

Naji (Pan, They/Them ((NB)
Naji is our anxiety side. Mostly depressed but... they are doing a great job. Sometimes, it gets even more difficult to find out what just happened and made them so sad...

Elis (Bi, He/They/Her ((he doesn't care anymore lmao-)
Elis is our mental health. He is working on keeping it stable and tries not to overwork this body with tasks or what so ever. As we know, mental health can be QUITE the challenge at days that seem grey and everything collapsing. However, this guy... mwah, he is doing the best he can. While learning how to be a therapist :skull:

Aite/Ate/Até (???, He/Him ((???)
Aite has only been revealed for three days now. The theory is that he was around since MONTHS without us knowing that he is here. Not even Paint noticed him. He is our new intrusive thoughts side, and with that also the Truth-speaker. Truth-speaker in the meaning of saying things what the others usually are afraid of saying due to the feeling of hurting others. He is.. well, we dont know much about him yet, and we would love to know more about him... when he wouldn't be such a thread to our mindpalace and sides... MOSTLY TO THE HOST-

The tile picture is the whole crew. We have the mindpalace short Mike on the full left. Then we have Edric, Aite, Mauryce, Elis, Anthony, Naji, and Claus. On the ground is Paint with their child Wren. ^^ so you have a picture how they actually look like.

Now:
I want to give trigger warnings for the following topics

- depression
- self harm
- self destruction
- self hate
- dysphoria
- BPD outbreaks
- BP outbreaks
- death??
- manipulation
- ...NSFW???