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13| Finding out
Azuree's POV
September 16
I watched as the blood poured out of my skin onto my white-tiled bathroom floor. I slit my forearm again and more blood seeped out of my body. I bit down on my bottom lip and sucked in a deep breath. I don't cut on my wrists, just my forearm because of the veins. I just want to feel pain temporary pain... After the tenth cut, I cleaned up my arm and the floor.
I haven't spoken to him since he choked me which is good. I'm done with him and I mean it. He's causing me so much pain. I wiped off the razor that my mother gave me and headed to her room. She gave me the razor so that I could make a pair of cut-up jeans. I did do that but I also cut myself.
"Here you go, momma."
"Thank you. Just put it back in the bathroom." I nodded my head and put it back on her counter. I left the bathroom and she stopped me before I could leave her room. "Zee are you okay?"
"Umm yeah, why?"
Don't be suspicious Azuree... be calm girl.
"No reason. You just seem a bit off."
"Oh. I'm fine momma." She nodded her head and I left out of her room. I took a deep breath and got into my room. I laid flat on my bed and closed my eyes.
Fuck that was so close!
"You're going to have to stop cutting yourself before you end up here with us..." I heard my aunt say. Wait— Whitney?!
"Auntie Whitney to you." Did I say that out loud? I opened my eyes and saw my aunt and uncle standing over me. I sat up and pulled my knees to my chest.
"I'm not cutting."
"You know that we can see you right?" My uncle said and I chuckled. Right, why am I lying?
"I can't stop. It feels good and it doesn't hurt as bad. I just— I just want to escape this pain." I said before sobbing into my hands. They walked over to me and rubbed my back.
"Tell your parents what's going on with you. They will be understanding, I promise. Tell them everything, DDG, the pills, you cutting. All of it." My uncle said and I nodded my head.
I can't stop...
Janet's POV
My mind has been on Azuree, ever since she wore long sleeves that one day. Well since before that. She's a very quiet kid and doesn't talk much about her feelings. I just don't know what's going on with her. I've tried talking to her but she just shuts me down by giving me simple answers so I've just stopped asking her. I hope my baby girl is doing okay.
"Toni, has Zee been acting different lately?"
"A little. She's a teenager baby, you know how they act." I chuckled at her reason.
"She's actually twenty."
"Oh, wait really?"
"Yeah, baby."
"Mm, well I'm sure she's fine. She's at an age where she's finding herself." She's probably right but I don't know. I'm still concerned. I headed to the bathroom and saw my razor on the counter. I picked it up and put it in my drawer. I felt something wet on my hands and when I looked at it I saw blood.
What the fuck? Did I just cut myself on accident? I washed my hands and didn't see any cuts on my finger. I left out of the bathroom and called Toni's name.
"Baby, there was blood on my razor.
"Okay...?"
I rolled my eyes, "Azuree used it today... I don't know what she used it for."
