CHAPTER 1
I watch them as they walk and laugh together. I can see that they are really happy in their status right now. I smiled painfully, they say that time heals every wound that we feel in our hearts but I can't agree with it. Even how many months had past I will never heal.
The pain that I've been through will forever stuck in me. I sighed, they're already happy but why can't I.
I already accepted the fact that she will never come back to us, that she chose the man she truly loves and unfortunately, it's not my father. I've tried so hard to accept it but I just can't heal and be happy like them knowing that she's happy in her chosen path while it became my downfall.
Tears started pooling in my eyes. I blink my eyes to avoid it and took a deep breath.
Umiwas ako ng tingin sa kanila at pumihit patalikod upang umalis sa kinatatayuan.
I wish I can forgive them truly, without the pain and thoughts of being a worthless daughter. I didn't do anything yet I'm the one who's suffering.
My parents story will never be the same like I always thought before. They're not really happy, they're not in love and they just chose to marry each other because of me. They endured two decades of being together for my sake.
By the reason of, I wasn't a fruit of love. I was just a fruit of mistake.
I shook my head and leave the place like I always do.
What a unlucky life you have right now, Zyair.
Pagkapasok sa condominium, tinanggal ko ang suot kong sandal and change it to a comfortable slipper .Buti pumayag si Kuya Trais nang nakiusap ako sa kaniya na kung pwede ay titira muna ako sa condo unit niya, pumayag naman siya ng walang pag-aalinlangan. He knew my pain in our house kaya siguro pumayag.
Napabuntong hininga ako. I didn't waste my time to breakdown again. I'm tired of it.
I went to the kitchen to see what I can cook for dinner. After minutes of thinking, I decided to cook chicken pesto pasta and grilled pork belly. After finishing eating and doing some house chores, I did my night routine and sleep early dahil maaga pa ang pasok ko bukas.
Hindi pa ako tuluyang nakapasok sa room but I can already hear my classmates voice chit-chatting and laughing. I shook my head.
Dumiretso ako sa upuan kung saan palagi akong umuupo, sa tabi ng bintana. I like being here.
"Huy, Zyair. Nakareview ka? Tabi tayo" saad ng isa kong ka-klase at bahagyang tumawa.
Kumunot ang noo ko.
" Review saan?" balik tanong ko rito.
"Sa Elective 2. You didn't see his message in our group chat? We have a 50 item quiz daw sabi ni Sir. Grabe talaga si Sir kaka-discussed palang niya last meeting, pa-quiz agad hmp!" aniya.
"Sus kunyari hindi nag-review si Zyair tapos mamaya siya na naman ang highest HAHAHA" Ani ng classmate kong babae.
Some agreed and we laugh because of it.
"Pero seriously, I didn't review. Kayo?" I asked.
Umingos sila at umiling.
I shrugged. "Well, we better use our stock knowledge nalang." saad ko.
"Ay teh walang na-stock sa braincells namin, ikaw meron ta nakinig ka, how about us naman? " My gay classmate dramatically said.
I laugh at him. School is the place I can really feel the happiness right now.
