End Game: My Brother, My Friend.... My Lover?

20: DOYOUNG

       Time flew so fast. It's been a year since we disbanded and it's been 4 months since Junghwan and I lived together.

       I still took projects under YG Stage, done some short dramas and commercials and finally let go of my med schooling.

      Junghwan still doing acting more. His projects sometimes overlapped but since he's good in managing his time and the production intentionally asked for him so they cater his rigid schedules to accommodate him.

      He seldom has a break but when he does and I'm also available we just locked ourselves at home and binge eat and watch netflix and you know..... cuddles 🤭🤭.

      Day by day I found myself falling deeper and harder with him. Words are not enough how to describe my feelings for Junghwan. I smacked myself everytime he whispers those 3 words to me, every after sex, before I sleep and while I was sleeping and I never responded to him and opt to just hugged him tighter to let him feel my heart. Little did he knew that my throat gets blocked by air due to my chaotic heartbeat.

       My feelings for him is so overwhelming to the point that I don' t want to stop hugging him or being near him. The craving for his touch and nearness oftentimes scares me much more admitting it in the open especially my insecurities of a future with our relationship and myself still lurks in my mind.

         With our chosen careers, our kind of relationship is a risk and a challenge.  With my floating status in the industry and my family, fear is inevitable. And Junghwan has a bright future ahead of him.

        While deep in my thoughts, I was interrupted by the sound of my phone.

'Ding!'

   "I miss you.... I'm in Korea right now. Can I see you?"

        Jeongwoo.

       I'm on a break right now since my last drama just wrapped up and Junghwan is away in Yongin for his historical drama. He comes home during break or if he has schedule meeting and shoots here in Seoul.

      I contemplated for a while if I should tell him about Woo but if he was in the middle of Filming I doubt he can see my message. Plus, there's nothing wrong if I meet Woo, he's a friend and a co-member.

      
       I texted Jeongwoo back and agreed to meet him at the coffee shop near YG.

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I just arrived at The Same Cafe front of YG building when I already spotted Jeongwoo with his manager at the counter ordering.

He saw me as soon as I entered the shop and welcome me with a big smile and a hug. He asked me afterwards what to get for me and I decided to look for a good spot where we can have enough privacy to talk.

Though our group somewhat disbanded perse but we still got a lot of fans following us in most of our individual activities on and off camera.

It felt good to see him again. It's only been a year or several months more but it felt like I haven't seen him for ages. Funny thing is I realized I did missed him. Though we haven't been together for long but Jeongwoo and I were always close even way back our group's debut. Him, me and Junghwan.

"H-hi....."

As soon as he sat down in front of me I felt a little.... Shy? Weird right? This is just Jeongwoo, my friend...... aah also my ex maybe that's why. I didn't know I chuckled having those mental debate on my own that kind of surprised him.