Fated To Be

Are You Proud?

Lu Yu Xiao seems to be taken aback by his sudden words, he can't seem to understand why he suddenly decided to leave,

"So sudden? Why?"

Shen Wei, "I have been thinking about it for a while. There are things that must be faced sooner or later, let's do it while I am still having the mood-

Furthermore, I think Jiang Lu Wen would have come to the city, he must be waiting there, wouldn't it be fun to see if I have already gone somewhere else while he is still waiting?", his face is smiling, but Lu Yu Xiao know that his smile is a faked one, the one that feels distant and complicated,

Lu Yu Xiao, "I will go with you",

Shen Wei slowly shakes his head, "No need. You should go back to your own duty and protect your family well, that is the only thing you need to do"

Lu Yu Xiao, "That is why I said I will help you"

Shen Wei was not feeling that great, he turned to look at him, his face annoyed, he wanted to hold his displease, but decided to release it, "Can you please stop it?!", he snapped,

"What is it that you want? What is it that you are trying to achieve? Why does everyone want to help? Am I really looking that pitiful?", before Lu Yu Xiao could reply, Shen Wei already cut him off,

"What is it that you really want? Can you please tell me? I don't want to play with you any longer, alright?"

There was a long silence between them before Lu Yu Xiao lowly muttered that he didn't wish for anything. Shen Wei took a deep breath and slowly let it out,

"You don't want anything? I know that since we were a child, you have always not liked me, hated me, despised me, loathed me, always hated that I gain the attention that is supposed to be yours -

Let me ask you something, have I really gotten that attention?? Which one of those is mine? Those are never really mine, are you stupid or dumb enough for you to not be able to see it properly?!"

Lu Yu Xiao didn't say anything and also didn't dare to look him in the eye, his eyes looked lost with his head lowered, Shen Wei also knew that he wouldn't be able to get the answer he wanted from him, he got up and ready to leave, before a voice came from behind him,

"Because I wanted to apologize, for the past me who have done a ridiculous thing, I wanted to apologize to you, who have nothing, and I still push you to the abyss"

Shen Wei let out a cold smile, his eyes redden, but he still stood there not moving,

"Sorry? What does it use to apologize now? You should have known that your action will bring inconvenience to others. You say this now.. is too late"

Seeing his apology being rejected so bluntly, Lu Yu Xiao also gets the anxiety and frustration get to his head,

"Then what do you want me to do? Kneeling and pleading for you to forgive me?!", he spoke with his tone risen and arrogantly, Shen Wei also snapped, turned around, and looked at him coldly with hatred in his eyes,

"You are really good at making others disgusted by you", he turned around and left, but Lu Yu Xiao caught up and grabbed his hand, quickly apologizing for raising his tone,

"I'm sorry, I got hot-headed for a second"

Perhaps because the heat also rushed to his head, Shen Wei felt dizzy and feeling his whole body weakened and his eyesight fuzzy, Lu Yu Xiao quickly caught him before he fell to the floor, Shen Wei had a high fever, Lu Yu Xiao could clearly saw the tears flowing from his closed eyes and feel guilty for it. He quietly carries him back to their tent and tends to his needs, they decide to leave unnoticed that night without telling anyone about this, and they pretend to still resting inside the tent when the fact is that they have left using a truck, hiding behind the many empty boxes going back to the city to yet again carry another supplies to come later.