oklahoma smokeshow - jd9

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TW mentions of eating disorders and detailed bulimia talk

zelliezegras

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zelliezegras jam and trev forced me to go golfing with them and i was basically the best golfer there like call me ellie woods. why is jamie serving body ody in this like okay bbl😜

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soccergirlfireemoji oh yeah baddie she's literally a baddie baddie on point
- zelliezegras did u just call me a bop?

quinnyhughs trevor just td me you hit the ball straight into the fairway..
- zelliezegras can you let me just live in my fantasies

zebraontop this is not true FALSE INFORMATION
-zelliezegras buddy you're false information like go get traded or something

jimmydean wow never did think the ellie zegras would say i am serving body (i dont know what the means)

winter

elodies point of view

i'm anxiously pacing around the kitchen, cursing myself out after my most recent actions of having the worst binge i've ever experienced. i was doing so good, but with all the stress of moving to a new state and the internship i have felt on the edge since i got here. i hold back tears while brainstorming the only thing i can come up with to solve this crime i committed to myself.

as i lug myself over to the restroom sat in between mine and jamie's bedroom. thankful that him and trevor are currently at practice. i shutting the door behind me. eager to get every last crumb of food i let go into my body right back out. as i take two fingers to the back of the throat i feel the odd sense of euphoria knowing i am back in control. this was the only thing i had control over in my life

as i sat in front of the toilet, tears brimming my eyes because of the disappoint i felt in myself and also the feeling of my fingers in my throat. i feel a burning sensation coming up my throat

jamie's point of view

"alright see you in a minute man" i say to trevor as he drops me off at our house

"hey ask ellie if she wants anything" he hollers out the car window

"eye eye captain"

i walk swiftly to the door as trevor's car pulls away. quickly setting my belongings on the counter before going for find ellie. but stopping when i see her bedroom door wide open and the sound of crying and gagging coming from our shared bathroom.

i give a knock, but not hearing an answer i give myself the go to make sure she is okay. twisting open the door only to see elodie on her knees in front of the toilet with her fingers down her throat.

"ellie what are you doing?"

she immediately rips her fingers away from her mouth and places her other hand on my chest trying to push me out of the door

"i'm just sick jamie" her eyes full of tears, as she is still trying to get me out of the door. i place one hand on each hip, holding her from moving me away

"ellie i just saw you with your fingers down your throat" she looks down almost instantly at my words, removing her hand from my chest

"im sorry please don't tell trevor he will be so mad at me" she speaks through her sobs, eyes permanently glued to the ground

"hey ellie look at me" i remove one hand from her bicep to sit right on the side of her cheek, gently moving her face to look up at mine. "i promise trevor won't be mad at you. he will love you just the same as before. we just want to make sure you're taking care of yourself, and that's obviously not happening right now but we are gonna fix that okay?"

"jamie you don't understand i can't gain weight again. i'm finally starting to look okay" her eyes flicker down once more

"ellie you've always looked okay. you look better than okay all the time. you're so beautiful elodie. i wish you could see yourself the way i see you"

"you really mean it jamie?"

"i would pinky promise on it el, and i will do anything to make you see how beautiful you are. but you need to let me and trevor help you, we can't let you do it all alone." i look directly into her ocean colored eyes, tears still brimming the edges. before i know it i feel her soft lips against mine, giving me no time react i quickly match the movement. am i really kissing elodie zegras right now?

WOW THEY KISSED HOMY MOLY😭😭😭😭😭😭 hope you enjoyed this poo poo fart chapter anyways the updates may be a tad scarce i am so busy 😖 i will not forget about you all anyways slay all day lovelies