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Chapter 5

Alyson

I get up every morning at about 7:30 am but as it was the weekend I didn't have work so I got to lie in until 9:00. Leo never gets up until like 11:00-12:00 so I normally enjoy some peace (not that Leo's any trouble). But this morning I heard some footsteps and Leo's heavy breathing at 10:00, what's making him get up this early? I thought to myself. I wandered over to his bedroom door and knocked on it.
"Morning darling, what are you doing up this early?" I asked him.
"I was thinking about going to that place to plan Ben's funeral. If that's okay with you." He said as he opened the door, looking half asleep. Luckily I called the funeral centre last night and they said they had spaces for meetings today. Leo's eyes began to drop some tears out.
"Of course that's okay." I replied as I pulled him into a hug. I kissed him on the cheek. "I'm so proud of you. I love you."
"Love you too mum." He whispered back to me. When had he gotten so tall? I wondered to myself. He is about a head higher than me. I swear just yesterday he was the same height as me if not lower.

I asked Leo if he fancied pancakes. He said he did so I started making the mix. I enjoy cooking. I saw the shadow of my son walking through to the kitchen and could hear his footsteps coming.
"What time are we going?" He asked me.
"I'm not sure after I've made your breakfast I will give the centre a call and ask what availabilitys they have." I answered, pouring the smooth mixture into a frying pan.

Leo

I was laid on the sofa while my mum was cooking pancakes. I don't think she noticed but while she was cooking I was crying a bit. But that's normal. I got up SO early today. It's already 10:30 and I'm so tired.
"Those pancakes smell amazing." I yawned, as I turned some Netflix on. I had nearly forgotten about that girl I saw, I remembered how amazing she looked I smiled to myself. I must have zoned out because I suddenly saw one of my mum's hands waving in my face and the other filled with a plate full of delicious looking pancakes. I started cutting my pancakes up as my mum was on the phone to the funeral centre place (no idea what it's called).
"Yep, 12:30 is fine." I heard he say as she put a thumbs up in my direction. I smiled at her. "12:15 we will need to set off." She declared before I even had time I ask her. "You best go and get dressed after you finish your pancakes."

I was sobbing when I walked out of my room from getting dressed, I think what was going to happened today was sinking in now, I mean, going to plan your best friend's funeral at 14 years old is not normal. My mum hugged me intending to comfort me but I just cried even harder.
"You sure you want to do this today? I can cancel the meeting if you like." She whispered comfortingly.
"No, like you said it will be better once it's done." I sobbed, wiping my eyes. I could see the look of pride in my mums eyes.
"Okay, you  wait outside, I'm just gonna grab my coat." I walked outside and took in the view of the big city. My brain was processing what happened that day,  not grieving,  but replaying it in deep detail. Then the greif came on, so I tried to think about something different. My mum came out of the house and locked it.
"You okay, darling?" She asked me kindly but enthusiastically, I nodded.

As we were walking I started thinking about my dad, mum never told me what happened to make him leave but I don't really want to know.
"Hey mum, do you know where dad is, or how he is doing?" I asked nervously. She hesitated to answer.

Alyson

This was the first time Leo has asked about Dave since the accident.
"No darling sorry, even if I did I wouldn't let you see him. He is a horrible man." I was nervous to reply but I did. I hope Leo wasn't wanted to see him, god knows what he would do to Leo, after what he did to me.
"Okay, I was just wondering." Leo then said I few minutes later. We continued walking down the streets until we found the funeral centre.

"Here we are, feel free to cry, they are professionals, they are used to it, okay. Wait, don't take that in a bad way, I just realised how rude that sounds." I said after a nervous sigh.
"Okay." Leo said, he looks nervous I thought.

Leo

Mum opened the clean glass door to the funeral place. My mum signed us in, the receptionist told me to go and take a seat while she talks to my mum. I did as I was told but I couldn't help but wonder why she wanted to talk to my mum privately, it was my best friend who got killed. The lady took my mum into a small room and heard them talking in whispered voices, they kept looking over at me. 
"Okay Leo come one through." The woman said. I stood up and hesitantly walked over to the small office looking room. My mum had already explained what happened to Ben and how close I was to him. 

My mum did most of the talking, I mostly just stared at the floor and tried not to cry. I watched the clock tick round to 13:30pm
"Brill, thank you for coming in, it's been a pleasure talking to you. Let me know if there is any changes to the funeral." The lady said while stacking papers. My mum shook her hand and thanked her. As soon as we left the building I burst into tears. Me and my mum just stood still for several minutes just hugging, we have bonded so much since Ben's death.
"I love you so much mum." I cried.
"I noticed you weren't really listening, that's okay. The funeral is in two days at 14:00." Mum told me. We set off home and the next two days went like nothing.