Disguised //Sunwoo FF

Chapter Sixteen: Vicious Words Hurt Like A Bullet

Sunwoo changed out of his clothes and into something more comfortable, collapsing onto the mattress. He didn't bother covering himself up. Sunwoo was that exhausted. His body ached all over and his head was killing him. All he wanted to do was sleep, but a knock at the door made him open his eyes.

Upon the sound of the footsteps Sunwoo instantly knew who it was. He felt his body tense as he closes his eyes. He hoped that if he stayed perfectly still, Kevin would believe that he was asleep. Remembering their last conversation, he didn't feel like fighting. He was mentally and physically drained.

Kevin observers Sunwoo carefully, holding the glass of water in his hands. Kevin felt conflicted about the whole situation. His aunt wanted him to apologize, but Kevin felt like he did nothing wrong. He didn't want to consider Sunwoo his family, given everything that has happened.

"I know you are awake Sunwoo. So you can quit the acting now". Kevin spoke his tone sharp with seriousness. Sunwoo sighs before rolling over to face Kevin.

Kevin looked ticked off and annoyed. "I really don't want to fight Kevin. If you have nothing to say then go. I want to rest". Sunwoo spoke tiredly his vision blurry. Kevin bit his lip taking a steps forward.

"I don't know where the hell you have been, but do you have any idea what you put my mom through? She hadn't slept for days. She missed work because of you. And could lose her job. Do you have any remorse at all? She looked everywhere for you, and you never returned. I thought I told you to leave? Or did I not make myself clear? You better have a good explanation for your disappearance". Kevin fumed.

Sunwoo swung his legs off the bed before standing up. He didn't want to fight. "I can't say why I disappeared. Once I figure it out, I will tell you. You and my aunt are the only family I have left. I know you don't consider me family, that despite our differences, I consider you family. Why are you taking your frustrations out on me? The accident wasn't my fault. For a long time, I had thought that. But someone else killed our friend. Not me. I may not have all my memories back, but I am trying. I know that I am not wanted here by you. But for your mom's sake, can we try to get along? Why do you hate me so much? You know how worthless I feel sometimes because of you? I hate myself because I survived, and our friend died. I don't know why I survived, but right now I don't want to live. But I will live for him. From here on out just pretend I don't exist. If it makes your life easier. But in front of your mom, I will put up a front. My question for you is, why do you hate me? You must have a reason". Sunwoo spoke tiredly. Yet he was curious as to why Kevin despises him.

Kevin sighed running a hand through his hair. The expression on his face looked like he was in pain. He looks up to the ceiling, tears stinging his eyes. "I have my reasons. You wouldn't remember even if I told you anyways. Is that a good enough answer for you?" Kevin said bitterly. Sunwoo felt confused despite his exhaustion.

"No, that is not a good enough answer. I want a solid answer from you Kevin. Now answer me honestly. Why do you despise me so much? What have I ever done to you that you hate me". By now Sunwoo was feeling frustrated.

"That day, I lost a piece of me. Watching from the ground, I felt so helpless. No matter how much I screamed for you to stop, you didn't hear me. I watched in horror from the ground as you grabbed a hold of his wrist, but one of you let go. I helplessly watched my boyfriend fall to his death. I despise you that you lived and he didn't. You were the one who pushed him off and were the last one to see him alive. He should be here right now. But he isn't because of you. It should have been you Sunwoo not him. All you give us is misery and pain. Every time I am around you, I am reminded of that day. And I can't help but feel anger towards you. That is how I feel about you". Kevin said with such hatred that it felt like a knife stabbing him in the heart.

Sunwoo had no idea that Kevin felt that way. If he could save him again he would. Sunwoo fought back tears as he looks away. "I had no idea that you felt that way. And I am sorry that you lost your boyfriend that day. If I could turn back the clock, I would make sure that it were me who fell off the roof. But you have to know, that I wasn't the one who pushed him off. It was one of his bullies who did it. I was only trying to save him, but I got kicked in the side which made our hands disconnect as we both fell from the roof. I would never hurt our friend. You know what kind of person I am. You know that I can't hurt a fly let alone a person. I get that you hate me, but this hate isn't good for your health nor mine. I am tired of fighting. For the things you have said to me, I will forgive you. But I might now be as close to you. It's what he would have wanted us to do. From now on why don't we just keep our distances. It's better for our health. And if you still want me gone, I can stay at a local hotel". Sunwoo wanted to forgive him, but also keep the distance between them as things were heated.

"You won't be apart of my family. And I don't think I can muster up enough courage to forgive you. Mom may consider you family but I won't. But for her sake, I will talk a little. I am only doing it for her. But as of now, I don't care what you do. Just stay out of my way". Kevin set the glass down before leaving the room.

Sunwoo just blankly stares at the door feeling his eyes well up with tears. "I'm sorry that I hurt you. But I am the one who has to live with survivors guilt. I'm sorry Kevin". Sunwoo whispers before heading towards his desk and searching for paper.

Sunwoo grabs a pencil and begins to write.

. . .

The white shadowy figure rushed towards Sangyeon who was lying on the floor motionless. A small puddle of blood had now spread around him. The amount of blood concerned him.

"Sangyeon, hey stay awake. I will get you out of here". The figure struggled to lift him joked. Sangyeon groaned as the wound throbbed. Through half lidded eyes, he could see how worried his companion was. He let a small bloody smile grace his lips.

"Didn't know if you would return or not". He whispered weakly. The figure sighed realizing that he was now on his own. "You're my mentor, and I am not leaving you behind. What about Hyunjae? Where is he?" The figure asked the question that was on his mind. Sangyeon spits out some blood before replying.

"He is injured, but left when I was about to finish him off. He shouldn't be an issue for a while. But we must be on our feet at all times though. He really did a number in me this time". Sangyeon said as he looked at his wounds.

He knew that his wounds were serious, but he didn't want to worry his partner. "We are almost there just hang on a bit longer". He said as he out in the passcode for their realm.

Sangyeon let out a sigh of relief. His energy was draining rapidly. He could feel his body giving out. "I think it's too. . . late to help me kid". Sangyeon barely got out before collapsing on the ground.