Burning Hearts(Ongoing)

12| Attached to him

18+ mature theme. Skip those parts if you are not comfortable.

I woke up with a weight on my waist. I opened my eyes to come across the most peaceful thing in the world. He looked just like a baby when he's asleep. Few strings of his hair fell on his forehead. I put them behind his ear. His work doesn't allow him to rest like this. I wish he could spend time for himself not being a workaholic always.

It's been many weeks since I met him. And soon he became my comfortable person.

After many days I slept without any worry. For some reason whenever I am with him all my worries, anxiety goes away and I tend to be myself around him. 

I know that he will not judge me for myself and that made me fall for him again and again.

Do I really deserve this man? I can't help but wonder. Will I able to make him happy just the way he does to me? Do I deserve this happiness after all I have endured in the past with my past?

My Father. My biggest nightmare of all, wanted me dead.

His aggressiveness and temper has questioned me of my existence of still staying alive. He used to beat me and my mother worse than any animal.

I still remember that I used to sleep with all those wounds which spoke about my father's nature.

He once even burned my...my calves just because I went out playing at night instead of serving him food. My father was a beast and he can't even admit for his wrongdoings which brought our family misfortune. I still endured all this because of my brothers. He doesn't beat them as me because they are the bread winners of our family. I heard from my mom he indeed tortured them mentally from a very young age to make money. My brothers were busy making money for our family which made me not bother them with my sufferings.

But when they came to know about the actual situation of me and our Mom, they became furious. They cut ties with my father and took Mom with them. And I was relieved that my mom is free from that monster and so was I. Mom used to protect me sometimes by taking the beatings of mine. She suffered more than me.

Why do men have to be aggressive for everything? Can't they properly sit and talk like a normal person? I didn't need any inspiration to live my life. I have experienced the worst and I wanted to escape from that reality and that was my sole purpose of life.

I was living my life quiet so that I don't turn like my family is. My mother once loved him deeply and he even promised a secure future with her. He just used my mother as a leverage and for her dowry.

I vowed to myself that I will never ever encounter love and marriage.
I am not gonna have a family and I am gonna live a peaceful life and die alone.

But all that changed after one encounter with this man. 

Damon Richard Quinn

And I can't control that change. . He made me want to believe him. Want to love him. Want to spend my time with him. The way he became tensed for a small scratch over me made me believe that maybe not all men are the same.