breaking rules | Hwang Hyunjin

chapter 5

You went home and saw chan and seungmin sitting on the couch,they both were probably working on some music so you just ran towards your room

"So you had your dear dairy moment" you heard chan saying so you turned your head

"What?"

"That dairy" he pointed out to the one you were holding in your hands "I still remember,when I gifted you that you told me you'd write in it when you find your "he's the one" "

"Oh" you paused "well i was a teenager back then,also I don't think I'll find the one, I'm just gonna use this for work,it's getting wasted anyways" you chuckled as chan just shrugged,you could tell he wasn't convinced

"Well I just came by to grab your laptops charger" you handed him the charger and he walked out

You opened your dairy and started writing

Chan wasn't wrong though

You tried to block out your thoughts while watching Netflix but you just couldn't,it was frustrating,you couldn't even figure out what was happening to you,you just took a pillow and screamed into it but your scream was loud enough for chan and seungmin to hear

"Yeah come in?" You said as you heard them knocking the door

"Care to explain?" They said in a sync

"Nothing,I just had a long day you know?" You said nervously,trying to laugh it away

They just stared at you,judging
And closed the door without saying a word

"Probably going insane" seungmin was loud enough for you to hear,you just threw the pillow on the door,to make sure he knows you heard it

You stared at the ceiling and tried to figure out your feelings right now

"Maybe this would help" you pulled out a memory box that had a journal you made,your pictures with hyunjin

You started reading it,the little notes you both shared in the classroom so that teacher won't notice you both talk,your pictures together,your best memories,you started remembering everything feeling a nostalgic kind of happiness and comfort,you got too involved in everything that you just forgot about your thoughts,even though you still have that bond with hyunjin,you missed hanging out with him like you both used to,it was different

A tear dropped from your eyes landing on the page,you missed those times,you missed hyunjin

Outgoing call to hyunjin

"Where's are you?"

"At home" hyunjin answered "wait,are you crying?"

"Can I come over?"

"I'll pick you up in 10"

After 10 minutes hyunjin was there,you picked up the journal and walked out of the house and sat in his car

"Why are you crying love?"

"I just opened this again,i miss you" you sobbed louder,making hyunjin chuckle