You ruined me, but I love it.

Ceci's pov

"Don't let Liam put you down", Maddie explains while patting my back

"I wish I was like you Maddie?", as these words slipped out of my mouth I began to cry. Maddie was pretty, strong, smart, and independent.

But yet I was small, scared, weak, and useless.

"Ceci have you ever looked at yourself in the mirror?", she asked while still rubbing my thin, boney back

"Yes and that's why I hate myself", I jumped from the bed and shuffled my feet over to the bathroom.

I reached the bathroom with jealousy and irritation.

I slammed the door shut, and locked it. I pulled a bent paper clip out of the drawer and began exposing my inner blood to the outside. I could hear Maddie run over to the bathroom.

"NO! NO CECI STOP!", her hands pounding on the door demanding to make me stop.

"Please Maddie leave", I continued. I hated it when Maddie had to see me like this, ruining myself and she couldn't even stop me.

"CECI!! PLEASE!", her hands stop, and her body skidded down the door, banging her head on the wooden frame with disbelief she continued.

"Ceci?"

"What"

"Please just come out"

"No, I'm almost done"

"Ceci"

"I'm almost done"

"Ok then I'll wait"

After a few more minutes I stepped out of the bathroom.

"Did you clean up the bathroom so your parents don't find out?", she asked picking up my arm

"Yes"

"Listen I need to get going before it gets late. Hey do you want to go to the football game this Friday with me", she grabbed her bag and started down the stairs.

"I'll see if I feel better, if I do I'll text you", after my quick explanation I went back to the bathroom to throw up my lunch from earlier.

.....

It was hours later and Maddie blew up my phone asking me to come with her to the game after awhile I gave in to her silly question. Moments later Maddie pulled up in her little gray car she calls Mary.

"Knock knock", Maddie barged into my house with my mother responding with a simple hello to her. You could hear her feet charge up the stairs like a wild heard of gorillas.

"Let's go boo", I grabbed my purse and together we skipped all the way out to the car.

We talked about the school year that only started 2 months ago. I was worried about going to a after school activity that wasn't a requirement. At school people called me 'cut me Ceci' like I was doll.

"If somebody says something rude to you I'm not scared to step in, you know that right", Maddie said as we pulled in to the parking lot. Before I could get out Adriana wood walked passed Maddie's car. She is the most popular girl in school also Liam's girlfriend.

"Well isn't cut me Ceci and her sidekick Mary.", Adriana said to us. "It's Maddie whore", Maddie said back to her. "It's wood, and Ceci can you please calm your dog".

After that wood and her heard of sheep walked off to the bleachers. "Stupid bitch", Maddie rolled her eyes while shutting the door.

Once we were in our seats the football players started to make their way out to the field. I didn't stand up and cheer like all the others I just sat there staring at Liam with his uniform on. Even though he bully's me emotional and physical I still thought he was cute.