You ruined me, but I love it.

Everything good can turn out bad

Ceci's pov

We separated from our kiss. His hands grabbed by butt pulling me up to him. My legs snaked around his waist with his gentle lips pecking my fragile neck. He pushed me up against the wall, starting to shove his tongue down my throat.

"Lets continue this up stairs", he pulled my arm up his stair way, down the hall, and finally into his room.

I grabbed his shoulder pushing him onto the bed. He gripped my waist to pull me on top of him.

....

I woke up the next morning feeling like a new person. I was in just my underwear, with Liam naked and tangled in the sheets.

I put on Liam's superman shirt that happened to be on the ground. I walked the stairs a little wobbly and unstable but could still control my self. I decided I would make french toast just because I felt like some French toast.

I got out the materials and started my first batch of French toast as Liam came down the stairs. He slithered his hands around my waist pulling me closer to him.

"There isn't anything better than a beautiful girl making French toast and wearing one of my t-shirts with underwear. You're perfect", he pecked me on the check while rubbing my cold thighs.

"How many do you want", I turned around to face him and started to kiss him again.

"I want you to have this", he reached into the pocket of the tan cargo shorts he was wearing to pull out a little black box.

"Liam, I-I don't know-", I stuttered to him.

"I love you Ceci, so to show the love I have for you I want you to have this promise ring", he pulled out a ring with a silver band and a diamond right in the middle.

"It's perfect", I teared up as I said these words to him.

Liam was everything to me at this point. It's hard to believe I tried to kill myself, but I couldn't live without him. I'm still scared to love him though, what if I get hurt and go back to what I use to be.

"I don't want you to forget about us", he kissed my left hand.

"I could never forget", a grinned spread across my face.

"I have to go to a signing with the boys, do you want to come", he rocked back and forth with his hands in his pockets.

"Yes but can you take me to my house so I can try to look a little nicer", I chuckled

"Yah just let me put a shirt and shoes on", he kissed me on the cheek and headed to his room with me following.

I toke off his shirt and started to put my bra on.

"Babe you don't have to wear a bra if you don't want to", Liam chuckled to himself.

I stuck my tongue out with him doing the same.

Finally we were done getting dressed and headed out to the car.

"My parents are at work so it's all good", I explained

"What's wrong with your parents knowing about me", he asked with confusion

"Nothing it's just that my dad thinks that you are the reason I, yah know", I wasn't comfortable saying what I did to myself yet. I'm very ashamed about it and I don't want anybody else knowing it.

We pulled up to my house and I started to unlocked the door.

With Liam and I running up these old stairs it sound like a tornado. I sat down at my makeup table and started to get ready.

Liam laid down on my bed to later start tossing one of my stuff animals in the air.

I decided to wear light makeup but my lashes would be bold and voluminous. I wore a grey crop top with light washed high wasted shorts and my toms with straight hair.

"I'm ready". We went out to the car and started our drive to a signing.

.....

Liam held my hand the whole way through the paparazzi and fans that were outside waiting.

The security guards let us in and out of the crazy crowd of girls.

"Hey boys", Liam yelled out to the table of boys that were in the rest of the band.

"Boys, this is Ceci"

"Harry", the curly one responded

"Louis", the boy in stripes said

"Niall", said the one with an Irish accent

"zayn", said the one with all the tattoos

"It's lovely to meet you all", I felt so small and useless compared to this huge boy band.

"No it's lovely to meet you", Zayn said

"Liam always talks about you", Niall said while pulling me next to him.

"Yah you're even more pretty than Liam described you", Harry winked at me like a child.

Louis was quiet, standing in the back while everyone else was making me feel at home.

"Ok boys the signing is in 5"

"That's Paul", Liam explained.

The fans started to flow in through the doors like a tsunami. The boys sat down at a long table with sharpies in front of them. I decided to stand in the back while the boys did there thing. Every fan that came up to then were shaking with excitement. I decided to pull out my phone to entertain myself for the next hour.

Everything was fine before I heard a familiar voice approaching.

"Oh my god, Liam Payne. Isn't it a surprise to see you", a familiar voice yelled.

I looked up from my phone to see Adriana wood wearing daisy dukes shorts and a v-neck shirt with her boobs showing.

"Why the fuck are you here Adriana", Liam yelled at her with shock in his voice.

"I'm here because I'm a big fan, but why the fuck is Ceci here", she chuckled to him while giving me the evil eye.

"Liam is she going to be a problem", Paul asked to Liam

"No, it's fine", Liam said with anger

Adriana walked down the row of boys getting a poster of them signed until she reached me who was standing in the back.

"I hope you know that you will always be the suicide girl, even if you're with Liam. And your outfit looks like shit", she rolled her eyes waiting for me to say something

"Listen Adriana, I would usually listen to you and believe you but the thing is I don't take advice from hookers.", I smiled at her and about to walk away before her hand connected with my cheek.

My hand held my now red face with everybody looking at me. Security guards grabbed Adriana and pulled her out the door.

Liam came running over to me with a look of worry.

"Ok everyone but this signing has now ended. I'm so sorry girls", Paul yelled out to the crowd of girls.

"Ceci you're turning white", Liam started to grab my arms to keep me stable.

Minutes later my body collapsed to the ground.