STARGIRL ☆

12.1

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delilah sat at her vanity, a vouge magazine in hand. it was her latest issue that hadn't been sent out yet, she was proofing it to make sure all the information was right.

"hey, brays going to be her in about 15" xochitl poked her head into the room, the phone in her hand held at a distance to muffle their conversation "are you right to go? or do you need my help"

"no im good thanks" delilah had made sure she'd packed the week before so that there would be much less stress the morning of.

it was now the friday when most of the cast were flying out to pittsburgh. brady, xo, mason and delilah were all on the same flight, although somehow she'd ended up next to mason and brady got to sit with xo. but it hadn't really bothered either of them, everything between deliah and mason had been normal. it's not like they had talked about it, but somehow there wasn't any awkwardness around them. delilah and connor however weren't as good.. he had totally flipped at all of them after the dare, claiming it was ridiculous. his brother had called him jealous which obviously pissed him off even more, causing a fun night to end well, tense. delilah much like many teenage girls was delusional, she couldn't see the true extent of the boys feelings or why he got so frustrated. she had tried texting and calling to check in on connor, but those had all gone unanswered.

"so when he gets here you'll be ready?"

delilah gave an annoyed sigh, "yes"

"what's up with you?" xochitl put her phone on mute, and placed it on the counter.

"im annoyed." she stated "connor has been avoiding me all week, he won't even look at me"

the older girl pursed her lips, she had been filled in on the whole story from brady, but she wasn't sure if it was informative she should share with her cousin. not because xochitl didn't want to, it was the fact that she didn't want deliliah to think it was her fault.

"look lia" xochitl sat down "i think maybe he just needs space right now"

"but why? nothing has happened to cause this"

silence engulfed the room, and it made delilah feel sick. her stomach twisted and turned in ways she didn't think possible. she knew what had happened and it had been bothering her since it occurred. though she barely blamed herself, as it was brady who initiated everything.

"i know you know, and i know you don't want to admit it. but you do have to think about how he would've been feeling"

"it was just a kiss" delilah stated, her voice tinged with frustration "come on xo, it wasn't even my fault"

xochitl sighed, her shoulders slumping as she sunk down onto delilah's bed. sometimes things that didn't seem complicated were the worst of all. "it's not just about that lilah" she said softly "it's about everything leading up to that"

by this time delilah had disregarded her magazine and had begun pacing the room. "oh my gosh. i led him on didn't i?!" her words were rushed out as her eyes widened in realisation, the weight of her actions finally making sense.

both girls shared a look, delilah had known that's what she had done, but it pained her to even think about it let alone accept it. xochitl felt bad, she'd known about connor's feelings for so long, she thought her cousin maybe would of discorved it too by now. and she felt horrible for not warning her.

"it's alright lilah" xochitl reassured her

"what if i ruined everything?" buried her face in her hands, her friends meant eveything to her, especially connor. "i didn't mean for it to complicate things, why did i listen to brady??"