Enmu X Muzan

Brainstorm

Muzan POV

It's the middle of the night. I can't stop thinking. How should I give Enmu his memories back? How did I think I will ever find a way to do so? I let out a quiet sigh as I try and recall the day I turned him into a demon. I opened up on him holding a knife. I know he tried to kill himself. As he was getting closer to bleeding out, we somehow got into talking. I remember him saying this way of dying is much more beautiful than suicide, and that he was waiting for this day since forever. I can't imagine what could've happened to him. And if there really was something, wouldn't it be selfish to put him through all of it again just to find out why he loves me? And since when do I care if I'm being selfish or not? I put my free hand on my forehead as I let out a louder sigh. I can't think clearly like this. I decide to go outside to continue brainstorming in my office. I gently pull my arm out from underneath Enmu's neck and leave the room, closing the door as quietly as I can. I walk to my office, and start thinking what I should do. I still don't have any idea. Is it possible I can find something useful in a book? That sounds pathetic, but that's the only idea I have right now.

After a few hours of searching through my books, I barely found anything. I don't really have books about anyone getting memories back. However, I found one that said if you go back to a place where you don't remeber you've been before, you still might get some memories back of it. Although that seems weak. He literally started a new life, how would he get his memories back from going somewhere?! Anyways, that's my only chance so far, and it can't make things any worse, right? I honestly don't think it will work, but until I find something that actually makes sense, this will do. I will just tell him he has to kill some demon slayers. But...I don't even know where he used to live...I should figure that out somehow first. I sit down in front of my desk and start brainstorming again.

Abt an hour later

I got it! Although I don't know where he lives, but Gyokko does. He likes killing children specifically, and somehow, once he came across Enmu when he was around 5 or 6 years old, but didn't kill him because he wasn't afraid of dying, and Gyokko found that special. He even told me about him, that he would make a good demon, but I shook him off saying I don't want more children as demons. That thought makes me feel guilty a little. At this poin I'm sure that he went through something, that has tortured him even at six years old, and maybe if I turn him into a demon then, I could've saved him from it. Even though then I could've never had the same feelings for him, he could have lived a happier life, which is more important. But I can't get stuck in the past. I have him now. He's safe now. Everything's alright now.
I start getting tired, so I decide to go back to bed. I'll deal with Gyokko tomorrow.
I quietly lay back next to Enmu, pulling him closer to me. He's still asleep, thank god. He cuddles back to me in his sleep. I'm a little afraid of this whole thing. What if it won't be a good idea? I sigh. Whatever. He wants his memories back, so I have to give it to him.