Enmu X Muzan

Burning Memories

The song is good and it matches the au. It inspired the title...uhh listen to it ig

Muzan POV

In the "morning" I wake up feeling warm, with Enmu's small body in my arms. His head is against my chest, his right arm resting on my waist. I pull a bit further to see his face, and start feeling the urge to run my fingers through his hair, but both my arms are underneath him. I don't want to wake him up by moving around, so i just gently kiss his head, then keep looking at his face. Suddenly, i feel my heart beating in my throat. It's so weird. I've never felt like this before...and i never thought anyone could ever make me feel like this. Especially that this someone would be him. I guess i didn't know how much he means to me until i almost lost him... I can feel my cheeks turning bright red. Thank god he's asleep! I want him to know i love him...but i don't want him to know how crazy i am about him...
Suddenly, his eyelids flitch, and he starts blinking slowly, revealing more and more of his torquise eyes with every blink. "Good morning~"I say softly and quietly. He's so cute it's terribly hard for me not to giggle like an idiot, but i try to keep my attitude. "Good morning~" OH MY GOD HIS SLEEPY VOICE IS SO FVCKING CUTE I'M GONNA FVCKING SCREAM!!! I have to hold my breath to stop myself from that, trying to keep my soft smile. Now that he's awake, i move my hand from underneath him, and finally run through his hair. He breaks eye contact and blushes a little. "Thank you again for letting me stay here"he says smiling, his voice breaking into a whisper from time to time. "Shush, this is your place too now~" I regret as soon as i say it. Isn't that too fast? He blushes harder and seems a little surprised. Dammit, i shouldn't have said that! "Oh...well...thank you very much~!" He smiles honestly, which relieves me. I chukle a little. "Your welcome~" I kiss him gently, then get on top of him and move inside his mouth. He melts into the kiss more than before. He wraps his arms around my neck insecurely, and his fingers slightly run into my hair. Aw, he's never done that before, it's so soothing~ I hug him a little tighter, carefully not to break him. I start smiling, but I try to hold it back to keep my lips softer. I move one of my hands to the meeting of his neck and his jawline (he cut his hand🤫🧏‍♀️) as i fasten up a little, and he makes a smaller moan. I want to be as close to him as possible~ even closer~ I don't want clothes to separate his body from mine~ "I love you~".......What? Did he really say that? In this still kinda sleepy tone? Does he want me to melt the fuck away? I notice i have pulled away from his lips. Shit! I wanted to be the first to say it! He looks at me confused. "You do~?" I ask, smiling and blushing softly. "I...y-yes....." he looks away, blushing hard. "...you...knew that...probably.... Sorry, i didn't mean to...I-...I wasn't gonna say it...it just...I'm sorry..." he says anxiously. "It's okay~" i brush his hair out of his face, softly smiling. "I love you too~" his whole face turns red, and he looks away, desperately trying to avoid eye contact. I can't hold back a small chuckle. I give him a small kiss on his lips. That makes him look at me, but breaks it in a few seconds. I chuckle again, and lean a little closer. "You're so cute~"

Enmu POV

Why does he always have to do this?? Saying these things...it's embarrassing. What should i say to this? Should I thank him? No, that's weird... Should I deny it? No, that's even more weird... Then what should i do?! He's so beautiful I can't even look in his eyes...and i'm already blushing very hard...i shouldn't make it worse... "Aand~"he starts, wrapping his arms around my waist. He sits up, pulling me into his lap. "Do you know why you fell in love with me~?" I pause. I....don't...? I love him. I love him soo much...but I...don't know why... As long as i can remember, I've always loved him...but when did it start?
He looks at me a little confused. It makes me feel like i should answer his question, so i try to make a proper sentence that doesn't just say 'i don't know'. "Well..." I look down, avoiding eye contact. "I...I've always loved you, ever since i knew you...I...don't know if it has an exact reason.... That doesn't mean i don't love you!...I-...I most definetly do...! I just..." I hope it wasn't that bad... "It's okay, I get it" he smiles. I want to ask him why he fell in love with me, but I don't want to sound too conseited or anything... I mean he said he loves me not that he's in love with me... "You're thinking too much again." I quickly look up at him. "I mean, I know love doesn't just refer to romantic feelings, but if you say it while making out, it's pretty obvious~" he pulls me a little tighter, leaning his forehead against mine. "But you're right. It is more specific. I'm in love with you." I blush very hard, and don't know what to say again. "And if you're curious why..." he lans away from my face. "Well, i guess i didn't even notice it happening. I've always found you more interesting than others... Your personality and mindset is just so...unique."

Muzan POV

I twist one of his longer, blue ending locks around my finger, and watch it roll off. "You've...never been...afraid of me. I usuallyhate it when people aren't... When they're afraid of me, they'll do anything I tell them, even things they never thought they could do..." i keep twisting his hair. "But you... you followed my orders because you respected me. Not out of fear. And...it felt nice i guess...feeling like I'm worthy of respect..." What does he do to his hair that it's so soft? It kinda hurts that he doesn't remember, but i know it's not his fault....

Enmu POV

"Actually..." he starts, looking like he just snapped out of a deep philosophy. "If you don't remember, it's probably connected to your human life" He looks proud of himself. It's sweet~ But...he's right. Neither of us remembers their past. He takes our memories so we don't feel sympathy for anyone. Shit! I want to know it so badly! But I don't want to ask him to give my memories back...I can't do that!....He probably knows what I'm thinking about anyways...Aagh, this can be so awkward! "Um..." fuck, i knew it. "I would give your memories back if you'd like...but..." it's his turn to avoid eye contact and look embarrassed. "Buut... I actually never took your...memories..." he confuses me a little, and i wait for him to explain, but he keeps looking down without saying anything. "Oh...so... how come I don't remember?" I think that's the longest sentence i've made without stuttering so far. "Oh, well...that's kinda...complicated..." he blushes a little, probably from embarrassment. "Actually, I just...don't like that part..." he still focuses on not looking into my eyes. I want to ask him to tell me, but i don't want to be pushy. "If you want to know i can tell you..." i look at him curiously, though it's for nothing, since he doesn't look back at me. "So...well, when i turned you into a demon... I wasn't going to... I was just about to....well, kill you... but as i was... about to...you...kept praising me for how well I'm doing it, which made me angry at first, so i...tried to cause you more pain, but you didn't react, and that's what made me decide to turn you into a demon...but before i could....well...your heart stopped beating... And that's probably why you don't remember..." Well, that's not so bad... "It is!" he says offendedly and suddenly, which scares me a little. "I...killed you..." "And you revived me" I say smiling, trying to let him know I don't think it's a big deal. "It still hurts...I hurt you..." he's still looking down. "And even if it wasn't a big deal, that's why i can't give you what you want now" he says sadly. I try to think of a way to comfort him. I really want to tell him it's okay, and that my memories are not that important, but then i remember why i wanted them back in the first place. I wanted to remember why i fell in love with him, and by saying it's not that important, it's like i was saying my feelings for him aren't important. I can't think of anything else. I stay quiet. "I will find a way to give them back to you" he says, breaking the awkward silence. That kinda makes me blush a little. He's looking at me now. His glowing red eyes just make it worse. He holds my cheek and kisses me gently.
Even if I can never get them back, I will always know how much I love him, and that's more important than giving it a reason.