I Love Him *DISCONTINUED*

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A.N

Hey lovelies! Long time no see :( I know, it's been forever since I updated! Like I said I was in Nevada for almost a week and the hotel I was at didn't have service so... I'm sorry! It drove me insane not to update or write, trust me. Also, when I got back last night and was going to start writing but guess what? Wattpad deleted my whole chapter! Luckily, I took screenshots of my chapter before it disappeared, thankfully. So without further ado, here is your update, enjoy!

-Gracie :)

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Jared left my room and I just stood there. I wiped my tears away and moved my feet towards my bed. I couldn't take it much longer. I collapsed onto my bed and started to cry. How could Jared do something like that? Never in a million years would I think Jared would cheat on me. I probably deserved it, I can't blame him, I gave him a reason to. With everything I did with Kian and what he heard, I would've thought I was being cheated on too.

He shouldn't have cheated on me though, Jared just could've told me he thought I was instead of just "getting even" for "cheating" on him. Yeah he texted me and tried calling me and ignored them but all the text he sent me was "hey," "hi," or "I miss you." I think I at least deserved a chance to explain myself, I knew if I would've mentioned it to him he would've just got madder so that's why I ignored him. Also, the past week with Kian was great.

If I'm thinking crazy like this I don't even want to know how insane Kian's thought are right now. He probably hates me but he also has a reason too. Kian and I are never to happen now, I mean how could he forgive me? I lied to him, led him on, let him think we were going somewhere, that we had a chance, I let him hold my hand, kiss my cheek, and wrap his arms around me. Worst of all I acted like we were real couple and he believed it and that I was a good person. Now I understand why Jared cheated on me. I'm a grade a slut and a huge bitch. I've ruined everything.

Kian POV (Surprise mothafuckas haha, your welcome!)

I'm so stupid! Of course she has a boyfriend why would someone like her not have a boyfriend? She's beautiful. Her gorgeous smile and her amazing, contagious laugh, her long wavy brown hair and dark brown eyes that sparkled, and her soft tan skin, she was perfect. Her personality was even better she was always so happy, funny, and alive.

I really, really liked her and I would do anything to be with her but... She had Jared. The way he shoved her in my face killed me, I hated it, I HATE him! He doesn't deserve her, see, if I was with her I would make her feel loved every second we were together. Gemma could do so much better than that dickbag, hell, she could definitely to better than me too.

Well I guess if she's happy with him I should at least try to be happy for her. I don't even know if I can be her friend anymore, it's too hard. I need to be with her. She hates me, I already know it! She was to sweet to break my heart and tell me about Jared because she obviously knew I liked her, and now Jared thinks she's cheating on him with her.

Maybe I should go apologize to her and make sure she's ok. What if she's with Jared though, wait it doesn't matter if he's there because I'm only going to say sorry to her. I'll text Isabella to make sure it's ok first.

(Text messages)

K: Hey Isabella, is it ok if I come by to say sorry to Gemma?
I: Yeah but why're you going to apologize? You didn't do anything.
K: Yes I did, I got too close to her and now Jared thinks she's cheating on him.
I: It doesn't matter.
K: What are you talking about? She probably hates me!
I: Are you kidding me? Do you know how bad she feels for lying to you?
K: What?
I: Kian, I think she should just tell you what happened.
K: Wait, what do you mean "what happened" Isabella, what happened?
I: I think she wants to tell you, just come over.