i think about it all the time

purple

there's a purple canvas in the corner

she has watched me fall asleep a girl
and awake a woman

i have abandoned her
like an unwanted child

i promised to birth
a masterpiece
on her flesh

but when i picked up the brush
my fingers burned to ash

my brain rotted
into nothingness

i avoid her gaze
walk past everyday

while she calls to me

i pretend i do not hear

it is not that i don't love her
i just don't want to ruin her

my pretty purple canvas
that begs to be more

i don't want to fail you
i don't know how to make you into art anymore

- diaryofalittlestar